real shitty
so i had an AMAZING day with HIM the other day. hence the falling in love post. well like always, i fuck shit up really bad. i called him today and left a messasge asking if we were just fuck buddies or if we were more or had potential for being more than that. i called around 3 and then again later on around 4 i texted him, then he enver called back. so i rang him around 830 on my break, and he didnt answer, so i called and left him a silent message at 1015 and made it so i could tell when he checked it. and he just checked it. i figured he would call me. or at least go online to talk to me. but i doubt that he will. i really want to text him now telling him to call me. but i think ill wait until later. i have to see him tomorrow since we are both working[he has mornign shift, i have afternoon] and then on saturday we both have the same shift, so im hoping saturday night he will stay over or we can at least go out and talk some. but then maybe that wont even happen becuase of what i asked and said to him. soooooo please PRAY that he calls me or goes online tongiht.
think it would be wrong if i texted him again in a little bit telling him to talk to me, to call or go online. god i just wish he would fucking call. i want answers. but i dont want the loving that i get from him to end, i just wwwwant it to be more.
broken hearts suck, especially when you dont want it to happen. maybe im just being over dramatic because i have my period and am ALWAYS very self destructive the day of anda few days before. it sucks i hate it. im going to play a round of scrabble then text him. maybe in that time he will sign on. im assuming he is just leaving his friends house now. crappy. not sure where she lives in comparisson to him. i think close by or else near work. at least i know he's not staying over.
think it would be wrong if i texted him again in a little bit telling him to talk to me, to call or go online. god i just wish he would fucking call. i want answers. but i dont want the loving that i get from him to end, i just wwwwant it to be more.
broken hearts suck, especially when you dont want it to happen. maybe im just being over dramatic because i have my period and am ALWAYS very self destructive the day of anda few days before. it sucks i hate it. im going to play a round of scrabble then text him. maybe in that time he will sign on. im assuming he is just leaving his friends house now. crappy. not sure where she lives in comparisson to him. i think close by or else near work. at least i know he's not staying over.