Being a good person
So yeah, all I ever wanted to do was to be a good person. I got distracted for a long time by watching other people be rude, selfish idiots, and I acted superior, beleived myself superiour because my goal was to pay attention, consider everything, and just be a good person. In my distraction, I mostly called everyone else bad. I got bitter, I became smug, and I was an ass. I had hate for people and no patience for ignorance or selfishness, but in doing so I lost the plot. I was ignorant, and I was selfish. I thought that I was doing better because I was mostly able to drop the bitterness, but I was still missing the point. So you know what? People are people, and I'm not so smart. I still just want to be a good person. Its a work in progress.
And I want to be able (as in allowed) to take care of my son, and to teach him how to be a better person than myself. He needs his dad, and his dad doesn't think its appropriate or even remotely healthy for him to be raised by his dumbass passive-agressive great grandmother, which mostly seems to be happening just because his mom is more interested in making sure I'm not involved than in making sure that she's there for him herself.
Yeah, obviously its a work in progress, but can we just stop killing me, please? Seriously, just make it stop. Nobody needs this kind of abuse.
And I want to be able (as in allowed) to take care of my son, and to teach him how to be a better person than myself. He needs his dad, and his dad doesn't think its appropriate or even remotely healthy for him to be raised by his dumbass passive-agressive great grandmother, which mostly seems to be happening just because his mom is more interested in making sure I'm not involved than in making sure that she's there for him herself.
Yeah, obviously its a work in progress, but can we just stop killing me, please? Seriously, just make it stop. Nobody needs this kind of abuse.