Repeating records
Inspiration for this post indirectly comes somewhat from a song by the Script called Breakeven.
What am I supposed to do when the best part of me is always you?
What am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and you're okay?
We had a conversation yesterday as I was thinking about this song. Leading to my thoughts on this:
Maybe a year ago, I've been introduced to the idea of making a wish at 11:11. So for about a year now, I've been finding myself making a wish whenever my eyes happen to catch the clock at 11:11. Not because I expect making a wish on a time that occurs everyday to actually fulfill my wish, but it's more like a self evaluation of what means to me most. I'm not sure how many times I've made this wish, but it's been the same every time without hesitation for almost a year: Kathleen.
There usually isn't a lot of intense emotion attached to that thought. No deep anguish or frustration, no besotted enrapture. Usually just a smile and a reflection on a vague happy memory or two associated with her and then on with whatever activity I'm doing at the time.
A few times I've wondered if I should specify beyond that. But I guess not. Because one aspect of that wish may never come true. Another aspect has been true for a couple years now. And another aspect of that wish comes true on a regular basis now.
And I guess that seems odd...why would someone wish for something they already have and not afraid of losing? Or something they receive on a regular basis? But that's all included when I think, Kathleen. It's not just, I hope we're together someday, it's also I hope we stay friends, and I hope we get to hang out soon, or even just, I hope we get to talk soon.
I don't really know what I'm getting out of it. Perhaps I just like having a sign that gets me to pause every now and then to dwell on something happy.
What am I supposed to do when the best part of me is always you?
What am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and you're okay?
We had a conversation yesterday as I was thinking about this song. Leading to my thoughts on this:
Maybe a year ago, I've been introduced to the idea of making a wish at 11:11. So for about a year now, I've been finding myself making a wish whenever my eyes happen to catch the clock at 11:11. Not because I expect making a wish on a time that occurs everyday to actually fulfill my wish, but it's more like a self evaluation of what means to me most. I'm not sure how many times I've made this wish, but it's been the same every time without hesitation for almost a year: Kathleen.
There usually isn't a lot of intense emotion attached to that thought. No deep anguish or frustration, no besotted enrapture. Usually just a smile and a reflection on a vague happy memory or two associated with her and then on with whatever activity I'm doing at the time.
A few times I've wondered if I should specify beyond that. But I guess not. Because one aspect of that wish may never come true. Another aspect has been true for a couple years now. And another aspect of that wish comes true on a regular basis now.
And I guess that seems odd...why would someone wish for something they already have and not afraid of losing? Or something they receive on a regular basis? But that's all included when I think, Kathleen. It's not just, I hope we're together someday, it's also I hope we stay friends, and I hope we get to hang out soon, or even just, I hope we get to talk soon.
I don't really know what I'm getting out of it. Perhaps I just like having a sign that gets me to pause every now and then to dwell on something happy.