The very knife that killed me
This might not ever be read.
Everything was falling into place as I perceived it should. I felt almost human again. Reattaching my emotions, planning for the future. All was right in my modest existence.
As usual though, things were not as they seem. A certain deadline was approaching fast. Some one would have to give, instead of take. Fear drove that steely blade. Drove it straight into my heart. Killing the last shreds of hope, ending the flow of warm blood to my body. I knew it would happen like this. I just didn't expect it so early. However in my nothing, I have found that life behaves so interestingly. History repeats itself always. Now I am ready for what must be done. It took going through hell to finally realize my place in this world. I should hope I'll never forget again. I will never fall victim to this again. The stepping stone to my "becoming" has been cast. Lines drawn. Now let's witness the full power of fear and illusion.
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Everything was falling into place as I perceived it should. I felt almost human again. Reattaching my emotions, planning for the future. All was right in my modest existence.
As usual though, things were not as they seem. A certain deadline was approaching fast. Some one would have to give, instead of take. Fear drove that steely blade. Drove it straight into my heart. Killing the last shreds of hope, ending the flow of warm blood to my body. I knew it would happen like this. I just didn't expect it so early. However in my nothing, I have found that life behaves so interestingly. History repeats itself always. Now I am ready for what must be done. It took going through hell to finally realize my place in this world. I should hope I'll never forget again. I will never fall victim to this again. The stepping stone to my "becoming" has been cast. Lines drawn. Now let's witness the full power of fear and illusion.
:-0