indifferance is worse then hatered - hatred means you still care...
i feel kind of used right now. like people are only friends with me because they want something. i mean, i dont mind running interference and talking to people when asked to help out or "try to talk sense" into a friend who is upset about something. but when it turns around and becomes me as the bad guy when all I was trying to do is save a friendship from a stupid and unneeded break down and called a whore by someone that i thought was my friend (very close friend at that) it seems to me that friendships need to be reevaluated.
last night i wasnt pissed off about the part where i was called a whore, but i was pissed that the person decided that i some how didnt respect her, or her "morals". i am not the type of person to judge people - all i want is for the fucking drama to stop. I am tired of people fucking with eachother and using them as a scapegoat for things that they are dealing with in their own lives or battling in their own heads. i understand the need to have morals - i have plunty of them myself, but when someone calls me immoral, a whore, and accuses me of critizing their beliefs, it a direct hit to mine. i am tired of being ganged up on and left out in the cold because of other peoples prejadices and fucked up way of dealing with life. if you have something to say to me, fucking say it... dont bottle it up so much that it causes you flip out. i can take critizim... i dont judge people because of how they are - so dont fucking judge me.
in retrospect, i know that i should not have said a word about it. but in previous cases between these two people, i have been asked by both of them to interfear. never once was this a problem, but more of a way to have each of them understand what the other is thinking... that was my intention when asked to help with this case. however, some how along the way the anger was turned to me...
fuck this... i am out. i dont care anymore.
last night i wasnt pissed off about the part where i was called a whore, but i was pissed that the person decided that i some how didnt respect her, or her "morals". i am not the type of person to judge people - all i want is for the fucking drama to stop. I am tired of people fucking with eachother and using them as a scapegoat for things that they are dealing with in their own lives or battling in their own heads. i understand the need to have morals - i have plunty of them myself, but when someone calls me immoral, a whore, and accuses me of critizing their beliefs, it a direct hit to mine. i am tired of being ganged up on and left out in the cold because of other peoples prejadices and fucked up way of dealing with life. if you have something to say to me, fucking say it... dont bottle it up so much that it causes you flip out. i can take critizim... i dont judge people because of how they are - so dont fucking judge me.
in retrospect, i know that i should not have said a word about it. but in previous cases between these two people, i have been asked by both of them to interfear. never once was this a problem, but more of a way to have each of them understand what the other is thinking... that was my intention when asked to help with this case. however, some how along the way the anger was turned to me...
fuck this... i am out. i dont care anymore.