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for awhile, it seemed like every one in my life was breaking up with whoever they were with. it wasnt so bad dealing with tony and all this other bull-shit when no one else was happy either... but now, it seems like every one is starting to have some one special person in their life again.
i feel like an animal at the zoo who is looking out at the world wishing the bars holding her in would magically disappear so that she too could join the rest of the world.
i am not the type of girl who goes on blind dates, or randomly meets people. i dont like to go to parties, and most of the time i dont drink in bars either. i go places where i know people, with people that i know and get annoyed with those boys who call all the time telling me how much they cant wait to meet me.
i enjoy hooking people up. it makes me happy to see other people happy. but whenever i have the chance to be with someone, i freak out and make it pretty much impossible for him to take me seriously. i am by no means shy, or introverted. i like loud music and i know how to use power tools - do people get turned off by a woman who is self-sufficant or what is it about me that makes people not want to be with me?
i am loyal, would never cheat, i am smart, and funny, and like to try new things. i am a realist and an idealist - and i tend to enjoy life... i may not be the prettyest girl on the lineup, or the thinnest - but i never thought that mattered....
where did i go wrong?
i feel like an animal at the zoo who is looking out at the world wishing the bars holding her in would magically disappear so that she too could join the rest of the world.
i am not the type of girl who goes on blind dates, or randomly meets people. i dont like to go to parties, and most of the time i dont drink in bars either. i go places where i know people, with people that i know and get annoyed with those boys who call all the time telling me how much they cant wait to meet me.
i enjoy hooking people up. it makes me happy to see other people happy. but whenever i have the chance to be with someone, i freak out and make it pretty much impossible for him to take me seriously. i am by no means shy, or introverted. i like loud music and i know how to use power tools - do people get turned off by a woman who is self-sufficant or what is it about me that makes people not want to be with me?
i am loyal, would never cheat, i am smart, and funny, and like to try new things. i am a realist and an idealist - and i tend to enjoy life... i may not be the prettyest girl on the lineup, or the thinnest - but i never thought that mattered....
where did i go wrong?