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[squeekyme5]

i had a bad flash back last night. although i dont know if it was a flashback or more of dreaming about what happened my freshman year. after being at the bar with people who i have previously not gotten along with and have a relativly good time i guess that my nerves got the best of me. it was so vivid... i could feel it and felt like it was happening to me again. then my dream turned into him being back here at coe doing a grad school project with a class that i was in. i had to get up and leave the class room when he walked in.

i guess that fear does that to a person. and the nagging fear that i will always have of this man will not let me forget it...

moving on is good - it just takes time... right...