honestly

[squeeky_d]

There are too many moments these days when I sincerely hate my life- I cry more than I used to- I wonder what's stopping my feet from coming unglued from the ground- I often feel like I'm wounded, though I can't quite tell where the cut is- I've given up on being understood- I scare myself sometimes, not because my thoughts grow maniacal or outlandish, but because of their dry calm sensibility- I deny a lot of my own responsibilities- I desperately just want someone to tell me what to do next- I could really use a 'do over'- I am so, so sorry.

*shrug* I wish I could tell you I had a clue what I was doing.
I'm tired of pretending I'm just where I want to be.
d.