i don't want to talk about it so maybe you shouldn't read this
so i just want to say that things suck
i have been drinking everyday
151 is the only thing that keeps my stomache from aching
makes me think of kurt cobain
stevie walked in the door and i had to look at him about three times before i was convinced that it wasn't bernard
they have identical profiles
at leat when i don't get a good look at their face
i don't want to make any decidions anymore
i don't want to be told what to do
i don't want the next day to be what i am waiting for
i am trying out dealing with things day by day and i feel like
it may never end
things are not right
i am missing something essential
i can't keep running into this wall
i know how he feels
the best thing their is
is him holding me
it is the most uncomplicated and beautiful thing
i told him if i could die right then i would die happy
maybe i should carry a pistol for the next embrace
i should be seeing him on wednesday
anyone out there that owns a small fire arm and would like to make a girl really happy?
so lets talk about whats going on
i don't know if i am being a complete moron or not
and i freal out cos i need to know whats going on
i feel like i brought him back down to earth so that he could deal with life but he ended up spending his sane time enjoying it with other people
wonderful
i fixed you up so that you could be in a good enough mood to spend with jason and samantha?
what?
what bullshit is that?
you are so right
you do treat me like shit
i was really happy yesturday
like i was getting through to him
and now i feel like shit
i was thinking well
this is what you wanted
you wanted him to be happy
i need him to be happy
and i know that us talking through all that bs got him back down
but you know i am upset about some things
and i want and need and phisically will get sick if i cannot get them off my chest
and i ask you to come and be there for me you have to say that the day by day thing does not really include me for today
cos you are already busy enjoying your time elsewhere
i am antisocial and fucked
because all i need is all that i cannot have and all that i cannot have i you boy
i am diseased
what you have done has affected me and i cannot get rid of it
i the one person that i would die for is the one person that i cannot trust
what do i do?
he is confused?
make a choice and stick with it
make one
any single one
yes i want you to choose
and if it is wrong then fuck fuck fuck fuck
i already made the decision to love you forever
and i can't take it back
my heart is all yours and it is all broken
i have been drinking everyday
151 is the only thing that keeps my stomache from aching
makes me think of kurt cobain
stevie walked in the door and i had to look at him about three times before i was convinced that it wasn't bernard
they have identical profiles
at leat when i don't get a good look at their face
i don't want to make any decidions anymore
i don't want to be told what to do
i don't want the next day to be what i am waiting for
i am trying out dealing with things day by day and i feel like
it may never end
things are not right
i am missing something essential
i can't keep running into this wall
i know how he feels
the best thing their is
is him holding me
it is the most uncomplicated and beautiful thing
i told him if i could die right then i would die happy
maybe i should carry a pistol for the next embrace
i should be seeing him on wednesday
anyone out there that owns a small fire arm and would like to make a girl really happy?
so lets talk about whats going on
i don't know if i am being a complete moron or not
and i freal out cos i need to know whats going on
i feel like i brought him back down to earth so that he could deal with life but he ended up spending his sane time enjoying it with other people
wonderful
i fixed you up so that you could be in a good enough mood to spend with jason and samantha?
what?
what bullshit is that?
you are so right
you do treat me like shit
i was really happy yesturday
like i was getting through to him
and now i feel like shit
i was thinking well
this is what you wanted
you wanted him to be happy
i need him to be happy
and i know that us talking through all that bs got him back down
but you know i am upset about some things
and i want and need and phisically will get sick if i cannot get them off my chest
and i ask you to come and be there for me you have to say that the day by day thing does not really include me for today
cos you are already busy enjoying your time elsewhere
i am antisocial and fucked
because all i need is all that i cannot have and all that i cannot have i you boy
i am diseased
what you have done has affected me and i cannot get rid of it
i the one person that i would die for is the one person that i cannot trust
what do i do?
he is confused?
make a choice and stick with it
make one
any single one
yes i want you to choose
and if it is wrong then fuck fuck fuck fuck
i already made the decision to love you forever
and i can't take it back
my heart is all yours and it is all broken