on myspace too
so boredom is really begining to get the best of me. even though i shouldn't be bored because i have a lot to do in preperation for my bundle of joy... who to be quite honest couldn't arrive soon enough.
the thing is i cant do anything until my dad is 'approving and supervising' everything i do. it's just really f-in annoying. i dont like to have to wait for other people to get my shit done.
like how my fia agent has been on vacation since last monday and i called her supervisor and left a message and a week later(today) she is still on vacation and her supervisor is doing training classes for three days... i mean come on, i dont even need anything from them, i'm just switching offices- i just need someone to fax over my files and i won't be their problem anymore.
i've been sitting on the phone with unemployment for about an hour trying to get some sort of extention on my checks. i really hope i get it. i have a feeling the 'cash assistance' my fia agent was talking about will be even less then my unemployment. hm. alright they just said they stopped giving extentions two years ago. great.
i try to be in good spirit about everything, but everything is a catch 22 situation. like waiting lists for housing are anywhere from 6months to 6 years and i cant get on one because i currently dont have a job, which i cant get cuz i'm gonna explode within the next three weeks, and after that plan to stay with the baby for at least 3 months because i think anything sooner than that and i wouldnt feel comfortable with leaving her at a sitter. so when i do get a job after the 3 months i'll be pretty much paying for daycare and won't be able to get a little shit hole apartment.
then there's my baby daddy drama which i'm trying to ignore completely. i mean i did put myself in to this predicament. but i'm such a sucker. i am i'm a push over and i never want to see things for how they are. and i expect everyone else to know what they plan to do before i figure out my master plan.
brooklyn has the hiccups. it looks like aliens
i want to go back to school. like maybe one of those 6-9 month programs that try to set you up with a job when you walk out the door. like maybe medical billing, or maybe even cosmotology school. i wanna learn how to braid and work in a barber shop in detroit. i think that would be fun. i used to watch the sistahs down there and they're fuckin unbelieveable fast. crazy fast!
ugh. i feel extra annoying/annoyed. everything is so re-goddamn-diculous.
i just got off the phone with sam. she went to bed about 3 hours ago, so i think i'm going to go wake her up. do a little grocery shopping. maybe go and see gross erin at the hospital. maybe send pat a hope you're having fun card in jail. get jeff a b-day gift. i don't know. stuff to keep me busy until my dad decides to come home and direct me where to move shit.
the thing is i cant do anything until my dad is 'approving and supervising' everything i do. it's just really f-in annoying. i dont like to have to wait for other people to get my shit done.
like how my fia agent has been on vacation since last monday and i called her supervisor and left a message and a week later(today) she is still on vacation and her supervisor is doing training classes for three days... i mean come on, i dont even need anything from them, i'm just switching offices- i just need someone to fax over my files and i won't be their problem anymore.
i've been sitting on the phone with unemployment for about an hour trying to get some sort of extention on my checks. i really hope i get it. i have a feeling the 'cash assistance' my fia agent was talking about will be even less then my unemployment. hm. alright they just said they stopped giving extentions two years ago. great.
i try to be in good spirit about everything, but everything is a catch 22 situation. like waiting lists for housing are anywhere from 6months to 6 years and i cant get on one because i currently dont have a job, which i cant get cuz i'm gonna explode within the next three weeks, and after that plan to stay with the baby for at least 3 months because i think anything sooner than that and i wouldnt feel comfortable with leaving her at a sitter. so when i do get a job after the 3 months i'll be pretty much paying for daycare and won't be able to get a little shit hole apartment.
then there's my baby daddy drama which i'm trying to ignore completely. i mean i did put myself in to this predicament. but i'm such a sucker. i am i'm a push over and i never want to see things for how they are. and i expect everyone else to know what they plan to do before i figure out my master plan.
brooklyn has the hiccups. it looks like aliens
i want to go back to school. like maybe one of those 6-9 month programs that try to set you up with a job when you walk out the door. like maybe medical billing, or maybe even cosmotology school. i wanna learn how to braid and work in a barber shop in detroit. i think that would be fun. i used to watch the sistahs down there and they're fuckin unbelieveable fast. crazy fast!
ugh. i feel extra annoying/annoyed. everything is so re-goddamn-diculous.
i just got off the phone with sam. she went to bed about 3 hours ago, so i think i'm going to go wake her up. do a little grocery shopping. maybe go and see gross erin at the hospital. maybe send pat a hope you're having fun card in jail. get jeff a b-day gift. i don't know. stuff to keep me busy until my dad decides to come home and direct me where to move shit.