BOYS
Hey whats up?! Sorry I never find time to call you, Im always busy and think about callin' at the wrong times. But yea, I've had a little bit of drama going on, and I'm back to my confused state of mind. Im juggling myself between Chris AND Hal, and it's not going to work for too much longer.
Im not cheating on Hal, if that's what that sounded like, but it's still "not right" according to everyone else. I went to Indy w/ Chris the other day and stayed the night up there @ our friend's apartment, and we slept on the couch together too. Hal didn't quite like the idea of me going up there w/ him too much at all, and especially the thought me staying the night there w/ him (and we were drinking). I even told him the sleeping arrangement and I'm surprised he didn't go off on me.
But when Chris was drinking, he got all emotional and I kept pissin him off if I answered my phone to talk to Hal, or if I talked about him at all. At one point he was almost crying. But one little detail that I found out is that apparently he bought me an engagement ring. AMANDA, wtf do I do!? He bought it for me back around our 1yr 1/2.
What makes it worse is that today he got an apartment, he moves in the first week of May. He hasnt said anything about me moving in, but that was part of his original plan for when we were dating. Even if he asks, I don't think I would right away, but I am excited about helping him decorate and stuff.
Anywho. So I talked to Matt like a week ago, asking him what he would think of me if I was to break up with Hal, considering its his best friend, and I wanted to know if all of us (me, him, hal, rudy, etc) would all still be cool. I think me and hal would be fine as friends, all except if I date Chris there will be hard feelings.
What sucks is that theres so much stuff coming up, like my JR Prom, his uncle's Derby Party, etc etc.
I feel like I'm being greedy. No matter what I do someone is going to get hurt, and I don't want anyone to hurt because of my decisions.
Help me please!
Im not cheating on Hal, if that's what that sounded like, but it's still "not right" according to everyone else. I went to Indy w/ Chris the other day and stayed the night up there @ our friend's apartment, and we slept on the couch together too. Hal didn't quite like the idea of me going up there w/ him too much at all, and especially the thought me staying the night there w/ him (and we were drinking). I even told him the sleeping arrangement and I'm surprised he didn't go off on me.
But when Chris was drinking, he got all emotional and I kept pissin him off if I answered my phone to talk to Hal, or if I talked about him at all. At one point he was almost crying. But one little detail that I found out is that apparently he bought me an engagement ring. AMANDA, wtf do I do!? He bought it for me back around our 1yr 1/2.
What makes it worse is that today he got an apartment, he moves in the first week of May. He hasnt said anything about me moving in, but that was part of his original plan for when we were dating. Even if he asks, I don't think I would right away, but I am excited about helping him decorate and stuff.
Anywho. So I talked to Matt like a week ago, asking him what he would think of me if I was to break up with Hal, considering its his best friend, and I wanted to know if all of us (me, him, hal, rudy, etc) would all still be cool. I think me and hal would be fine as friends, all except if I date Chris there will be hard feelings.
What sucks is that theres so much stuff coming up, like my JR Prom, his uncle's Derby Party, etc etc.
I feel like I'm being greedy. No matter what I do someone is going to get hurt, and I don't want anyone to hurt because of my decisions.
Help me please!