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[squeakywheel]

I had a big cry over Chris on Monday night, but it ended suddenly when Kev contacted me on MSN. We talked for about an hour, and I felt completely restored after that.

I have a crush on Kev. He’s married, though, so it will never amount to anything. This is both good and bad, actually, because it will never amount to anything. On the one hand

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[prophetess666]

I think it's relatively easy for women to be friends with men they aren't interested in. A good portion of my friends are men I love to pieces, but in a brother sort of way.

But on the flip side, I think most men do have a hard time being friends with women without an attraction being there too. At least, based on my own experiences, the only men I'm friends with that haven't ever been interested in me are gay. And there's a group of men that weren't willing to let that interest slide, so I said goodbye to them because I hate that kind of pressure.

This is not to say that all men are like that...my friend Casey for example, has admitted he thinks I'm attractive, but also knows that he and I are not compatible and he doesn't want to be involved with me. I can live with that. And I think as long as Scotsman seems to understand where you're coming from, you've done your part.

I worry about similar things, living alone like I do. Little things, like what if I fall and break my ankle bringing the damn dog inside, or cut myself when I'm making dinner. I mean, eventually my aunt or Allen would figure out that something happened to me, but it might be too late! I get paranoid about stupid stuff, lol.