grace all over my face....
"tell me again... can we be lovers and friends...."
oooo wee.....
so.... life is a challenge right now. im fighting demons that i thought were dead or at least on a lengthy vacation and i suppose they have been... its been about ... mmm.... a year or two since we've battled.
negativity. yarg!!! pessimism.. i hate thee.... discouragement, satans lies... i spit on thy face!!!!!
i listed the things that are getting me down. and the list... was quite large. it looks as tho... ive been a little careless in my life and have let things build me an obstacle course that will take some time and the Lords divine strength to endure. however, i see that through it all only more strength and beauty will rise out of it and the mere thought of that brought me laughter today. so much of this stuff was not my own.... but i took it upon myself and now i must have the maturity and wisdom to finish what i started.
regrets. lets not lie lest it become a habit... :) hahah this is fun..... i have many. futile wishes.... i have many. the stupidest things too... kinda funny.... :) like... no no, ill take those to the grave. sorry. maybe ill share them with you when you are down so you can laugh, but for now... my tongue is tied.
what is good about this tho.... is usually, im clueless to the fact that i am hurting. i pretend for sooo long that im perfectly fine and i actually kinda liked it that way cause id be better before i knew it.... but now... i can honestly say, that things.... arent so hot, but they will be soon. im grateful for the hope God has brought into my life and these struggles, that maybe... i have created for myself... but all the same will be redeemed by the blood and turned into joyful things....
i keep thinking about Gods previous faithfulness to me.....
sooooo good to think about
i love you guys, so much!!!! bekah... i cant wait for christmas break!!! to disneyland we go!!!
oooo wee.....
so.... life is a challenge right now. im fighting demons that i thought were dead or at least on a lengthy vacation and i suppose they have been... its been about ... mmm.... a year or two since we've battled.
negativity. yarg!!! pessimism.. i hate thee.... discouragement, satans lies... i spit on thy face!!!!!
i listed the things that are getting me down. and the list... was quite large. it looks as tho... ive been a little careless in my life and have let things build me an obstacle course that will take some time and the Lords divine strength to endure. however, i see that through it all only more strength and beauty will rise out of it and the mere thought of that brought me laughter today. so much of this stuff was not my own.... but i took it upon myself and now i must have the maturity and wisdom to finish what i started.
regrets. lets not lie lest it become a habit... :) hahah this is fun..... i have many. futile wishes.... i have many. the stupidest things too... kinda funny.... :) like... no no, ill take those to the grave. sorry. maybe ill share them with you when you are down so you can laugh, but for now... my tongue is tied.
what is good about this tho.... is usually, im clueless to the fact that i am hurting. i pretend for sooo long that im perfectly fine and i actually kinda liked it that way cause id be better before i knew it.... but now... i can honestly say, that things.... arent so hot, but they will be soon. im grateful for the hope God has brought into my life and these struggles, that maybe... i have created for myself... but all the same will be redeemed by the blood and turned into joyful things....
i keep thinking about Gods previous faithfulness to me.....
sooooo good to think about
i love you guys, so much!!!! bekah... i cant wait for christmas break!!! to disneyland we go!!!