first day as an fra (future resident assistant)
so.... after weeks of interviewing and waiting... i find out, that im to serve as an ra next year. sooo many emotions inside of me, as always :)
today i took a huge nap because my body was all tense. i guess i was stressing out without knowing it. i do that a lot. God has taught me so much these past weeks. he has answered so many prayers. and i cant understand why so quickly, when others go unanswered that ive been praying for since... well since i was 16, like my brothers. but im learning to trust him. have faith is another thing. i had faith that if i was cut... that there would be joy in that and i need to have faith that there is purpose in my unanswered prayers.
God has changed my heart, like totally out of the blue. all of the sudden i see things differently, feel differently about so many things. its so good not to worry about things that were wearing me out. school and youth group im still waiting on, but not stressing over, at least i think. maybe when they resolve my neck will go stiff like today. haha....
man i dont have to be hyper or bouncing off the walls to be happy. i dont have to be yelling and wrestling with kelser to be happy. im happy just to know that God hasnt given up on me. and i swear i am screwing up so bad these days, but He is still right here cheering me on and catching me when i fall. GRANTING ME FORGIVENESS! NOT ONLY FROM HIMSELF BUT FROM HIS CHILDREN. holy crap!!! this not every day ish!!! oh, what is that psalms.... about him holding us and catching us when we fall. that is sooo good. the best part about this... is when i was reallly really sad, i feel almost exactly as i do now, except circumstance is looking brighter right now. but even in those times... God was who He is... and His promise was still so HOpeful to me. man... if age just brings me closer to God. bring on my 60s... yikes. nm, ill be on my 4th or 5th hip haha
today i took a huge nap because my body was all tense. i guess i was stressing out without knowing it. i do that a lot. God has taught me so much these past weeks. he has answered so many prayers. and i cant understand why so quickly, when others go unanswered that ive been praying for since... well since i was 16, like my brothers. but im learning to trust him. have faith is another thing. i had faith that if i was cut... that there would be joy in that and i need to have faith that there is purpose in my unanswered prayers.
God has changed my heart, like totally out of the blue. all of the sudden i see things differently, feel differently about so many things. its so good not to worry about things that were wearing me out. school and youth group im still waiting on, but not stressing over, at least i think. maybe when they resolve my neck will go stiff like today. haha....
man i dont have to be hyper or bouncing off the walls to be happy. i dont have to be yelling and wrestling with kelser to be happy. im happy just to know that God hasnt given up on me. and i swear i am screwing up so bad these days, but He is still right here cheering me on and catching me when i fall. GRANTING ME FORGIVENESS! NOT ONLY FROM HIMSELF BUT FROM HIS CHILDREN. holy crap!!! this not every day ish!!! oh, what is that psalms.... about him holding us and catching us when we fall. that is sooo good. the best part about this... is when i was reallly really sad, i feel almost exactly as i do now, except circumstance is looking brighter right now. but even in those times... God was who He is... and His promise was still so HOpeful to me. man... if age just brings me closer to God. bring on my 60s... yikes. nm, ill be on my 4th or 5th hip haha