life experiments
so uh... I am being proactive on finding new friends here (because I'm having friend withdrawals), so I actually resorted to that thing we have all used in our darkest hours... Craigslist. yep, I got on Craigslist personals and was like "HEY I'm new to town no freak shows or swingers or really dumb people plz" and this girl named Caitlin responded and I think I'm going to go have coffee with her tomorrow...
I mean, I could end up chopped up in a bathtub somewhere but by the looks of her facebook profile, I think I can take her. It just struck me as weird that I'm doing this, something I would never dream of doing in Austin, and it sort of makes me feel pathetic but whenever I start feeling that way I think about how nice it will be to have someone to hang out with.
I hope she is not really vapid or annoying or clingy or has a terrible sense of humor or likes terrible music. But then, I think about a lot of my friends, and how different they all are, and stuff like musical taste doesn't really seem to matter (though vapidity, clinginess, and humorlessness most of the time does matter.)
I mean, since I've been here I've found it amazingly easy to socialize with strangers, much easier than it's ever been for me in the past. I even found myself chatting on the corner with this African business guy after he told me I should quit smoking and then asked me what happened to my eye (the burst blood vessels), and sure it was probably because he (self-admittedly) had just come from Union Station after a few beers, but still. It's crazy how loneliness facilitates communication. I guess it's kind of why you end up with so many friends after a study abroad, or how we all ended up so close in the theater troupe freshman year. I now understand all those creepy, awkward, new-to-town people at parties and in bars who sort of latch onto you and start talking when all you want to do is hang out with the friends you've had since middle school who are waiting at the table over there. I guess I need to learn how to walk that line.
I know I've said this about five times already, but probably it's the anti-depressants. it makes it a lot easier to talk to people.
I hope this Caitlin isn't lame. She seems nice and we have a tolerable amount of things in common. Bryan's friends are really great, especially Stephanie, but we can only hang out with Stephanie so many times a week. Plus they're just not my friends yet. historically, Bryan's friends have almost always ended up my friends as well, so I'm not worried.
I am friend-blind-dating. my god.
I mean, I could end up chopped up in a bathtub somewhere but by the looks of her facebook profile, I think I can take her. It just struck me as weird that I'm doing this, something I would never dream of doing in Austin, and it sort of makes me feel pathetic but whenever I start feeling that way I think about how nice it will be to have someone to hang out with.
I hope she is not really vapid or annoying or clingy or has a terrible sense of humor or likes terrible music. But then, I think about a lot of my friends, and how different they all are, and stuff like musical taste doesn't really seem to matter (though vapidity, clinginess, and humorlessness most of the time does matter.)
I mean, since I've been here I've found it amazingly easy to socialize with strangers, much easier than it's ever been for me in the past. I even found myself chatting on the corner with this African business guy after he told me I should quit smoking and then asked me what happened to my eye (the burst blood vessels), and sure it was probably because he (self-admittedly) had just come from Union Station after a few beers, but still. It's crazy how loneliness facilitates communication. I guess it's kind of why you end up with so many friends after a study abroad, or how we all ended up so close in the theater troupe freshman year. I now understand all those creepy, awkward, new-to-town people at parties and in bars who sort of latch onto you and start talking when all you want to do is hang out with the friends you've had since middle school who are waiting at the table over there. I guess I need to learn how to walk that line.
I know I've said this about five times already, but probably it's the anti-depressants. it makes it a lot easier to talk to people.
I hope this Caitlin isn't lame. She seems nice and we have a tolerable amount of things in common. Bryan's friends are really great, especially Stephanie, but we can only hang out with Stephanie so many times a week. Plus they're just not my friends yet. historically, Bryan's friends have almost always ended up my friends as well, so I'm not worried.
I am friend-blind-dating. my god.