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hey...
its been a while since i last updated...im very discouraged to update or even go on livejournal...
i only have like a few friends...
and no one hardly comments...
as u all noe i go to city as now...
MWF i have classes form 1st to 4th and then i teach photography to like 6 year olds, im there until like 5 30 right by west 4th...
on Tuesdays and Thursdays i am an assistant to a profound photographer in nyc...
im right by union square till ike 6 at night. im taking photography classes for the 4th time at FIT on saturdays, but i applyed for the scholarship and got it, so the class is free instead of the usual 250, also i get 125 sheets of paper and 10 rolls of film...
so thats like another 75$ saved...
im pretty happy about that. edith is working at hot topic...and it seems that my bestfriend gets to see her more then i...
she is working for us. and our trip to europe this summer before college...
im very proud of her cause i noe it hard and that shes doing it for us...
i think shes doing mostly for me cause ive never seen anything before out of the tri-state area...
i use to live in south carilina on a 20 acre farm, but i was too young. so it doesnt count...
so anyway...
im going to hopefully gonna see my girlfriend this weekend if her parents go away...
and i really hope we get saturday night together cause i think i owe her a nice night...
i feel that i could try harder...that i havent been as close as i usualy am to her lately...i feel that i might have more apathy to somethings...but at least i see these things...so i hope we get this weekend together, cause last weekend i kinda took advantage of and she didnt get what she really wanted out of it...
anyway...
ive been meeting some cool kids at city as...which is really fucking cool i think...but already i have met some of the most confussing kids in the world too...its hard to explain on this...
on a brighter note...
my band COUNTDOWN TO BUSTDOWN is fucking off the hook. we practice at sound works on the weekends. i love my band. we have the x guitarist of 36 deadly fists...and danny on drums, x vocalist of foiled again...glen...our other guitarist is kinda chris from subvert, but im looking at this other kid pete from my school to have a practice with us cause chris lives too far away...
i love my band, i love glen and of course danny, and rich...i play bass if your wondering... but there is this one guy...mikey...he a sick guitarist and kinda wants to join and kinda doenst...i dont mind him but i think hes got the hots for my girl and she comes to all our practices...
its wierd though cause usually i get very terriorial if i noe some guy got the hots for my girl...but i kinda dont mind...cause we kiss infront of him and shit...and he is like 20somethin...lol...but we have been together for a year and 9 months almost...so...its a bit more easier to deal with...plus id fucking knock him if the pedifile tried something...but im sure if he knew how long we have been going out for...he #1 shouldnt want get with her cause ive been hitting that for the past year and like 8 months...and have respect too...
when we chill (edy and i) with other people or at seans or at a show, we always wonder if people think we just hooked up, lol...i always thought that was funny...she was telling me the other day that at practice it was her and like my boy's girl and a few other friends ( we usualy have mad heads at our practice and smoke up) and she could see them watching me...and then she was thinking about how they see me...you noe...cause she was seen me naked...obviously...(and in funny positions too)...please no one get mental images, lol...and you noe, shes seen me not trying to look pretty when i leave the house in the morning, shes seen me in sweatpants, lol...and in the shower and bubble bath...shes seen me before i go to bed and when i wake up...weve puked out her window together...and when she watches me paly bass in a band she always thinks all of these things...and she wondered...i think...unless i totaly misunderstood her...which i might have or might not have casue it was like 3 weeks ago and i jsut could have forgotten...but any way i think she jsut wondered like what they though of me whne they look at me...
and truthfully this is always a though that goes on in my mind...i noe im very self consious about my self, and especialy on drugs (especialy pot) i always watch my self and wonder what people think of me, cause i noe how my mind works and shit like that , and if all my friends think like me... then god save us...or at least me cause that means i got me some fucked up friends who desperetly need therapy and peanut butter, lol...jk
but i dont noe...
while im on the subject...for those of you u that noe me...might have only met me once or for those of you that have maybe chilled wiht me, smoked with me...whatever...
what do all u guys think of me? the way i carry myslef...the way i speek..is my voice funny? the ways i look and dress...im just curious...
its been a while since i last updated...im very discouraged to update or even go on livejournal...
i only have like a few friends...
and no one hardly comments...
as u all noe i go to city as now...
MWF i have classes form 1st to 4th and then i teach photography to like 6 year olds, im there until like 5 30 right by west 4th...
on Tuesdays and Thursdays i am an assistant to a profound photographer in nyc...
im right by union square till ike 6 at night. im taking photography classes for the 4th time at FIT on saturdays, but i applyed for the scholarship and got it, so the class is free instead of the usual 250, also i get 125 sheets of paper and 10 rolls of film...
so thats like another 75$ saved...
im pretty happy about that. edith is working at hot topic...and it seems that my bestfriend gets to see her more then i...
she is working for us. and our trip to europe this summer before college...
im very proud of her cause i noe it hard and that shes doing it for us...
i think shes doing mostly for me cause ive never seen anything before out of the tri-state area...
i use to live in south carilina on a 20 acre farm, but i was too young. so it doesnt count...
so anyway...
im going to hopefully gonna see my girlfriend this weekend if her parents go away...
and i really hope we get saturday night together cause i think i owe her a nice night...
i feel that i could try harder...that i havent been as close as i usualy am to her lately...i feel that i might have more apathy to somethings...but at least i see these things...so i hope we get this weekend together, cause last weekend i kinda took advantage of and she didnt get what she really wanted out of it...
anyway...
ive been meeting some cool kids at city as...which is really fucking cool i think...but already i have met some of the most confussing kids in the world too...its hard to explain on this...
on a brighter note...
my band COUNTDOWN TO BUSTDOWN is fucking off the hook. we practice at sound works on the weekends. i love my band. we have the x guitarist of 36 deadly fists...and danny on drums, x vocalist of foiled again...glen...our other guitarist is kinda chris from subvert, but im looking at this other kid pete from my school to have a practice with us cause chris lives too far away...
i love my band, i love glen and of course danny, and rich...i play bass if your wondering... but there is this one guy...mikey...he a sick guitarist and kinda wants to join and kinda doenst...i dont mind him but i think hes got the hots for my girl and she comes to all our practices...
its wierd though cause usually i get very terriorial if i noe some guy got the hots for my girl...but i kinda dont mind...cause we kiss infront of him and shit...and he is like 20somethin...lol...but we have been together for a year and 9 months almost...so...its a bit more easier to deal with...plus id fucking knock him if the pedifile tried something...but im sure if he knew how long we have been going out for...he #1 shouldnt want get with her cause ive been hitting that for the past year and like 8 months...and have respect too...
when we chill (edy and i) with other people or at seans or at a show, we always wonder if people think we just hooked up, lol...i always thought that was funny...she was telling me the other day that at practice it was her and like my boy's girl and a few other friends ( we usualy have mad heads at our practice and smoke up) and she could see them watching me...and then she was thinking about how they see me...you noe...cause she was seen me naked...obviously...(and in funny positions too)...please no one get mental images, lol...and you noe, shes seen me not trying to look pretty when i leave the house in the morning, shes seen me in sweatpants, lol...and in the shower and bubble bath...shes seen me before i go to bed and when i wake up...weve puked out her window together...and when she watches me paly bass in a band she always thinks all of these things...and she wondered...i think...unless i totaly misunderstood her...which i might have or might not have casue it was like 3 weeks ago and i jsut could have forgotten...but any way i think she jsut wondered like what they though of me whne they look at me...
and truthfully this is always a though that goes on in my mind...i noe im very self consious about my self, and especialy on drugs (especialy pot) i always watch my self and wonder what people think of me, cause i noe how my mind works and shit like that , and if all my friends think like me... then god save us...or at least me cause that means i got me some fucked up friends who desperetly need therapy and peanut butter, lol...jk
but i dont noe...
while im on the subject...for those of you u that noe me...might have only met me once or for those of you that have maybe chilled wiht me, smoked with me...whatever...
what do all u guys think of me? the way i carry myslef...the way i speek..is my voice funny? the ways i look and dress...im just curious...