It's far too late for this
It's rough knowing that the next 24 hours are going to suck. As of right now, aka, way later than I should be up, the storms are just starting to roll in, and if the weather channel is correct, they will be making my anxiety levels skyrocket for quite some time. And then after a short break, more storms will arrive, and then another round after that.
I always feel like I have to be the one who knows what's going on with the weather because I need to know what's going on with the things I can't control. You don't really know what it's like to feel powerless to a storm, until your sifting through the destroyed homes of a neighborhood you have visited regularly since you were born. I truly fear what would happen to me, mentally, if I were ever in a building in the direct line of a tornado. It's one of my biggest fears just because I don't know how I will come out the other side of it.
But here I lie, the storm arriving and I have to be up, so I can know what to expect, and so if anyone should ask, or start rattling off incorrect information I can correct them, and make myself feel better. I know that the round after round of storms is going to hit during a particularly long shift at work where I will be unable to see what is going on outside. I will sit at my register, powerless, and without knowledge, of the advancing storms and I will not be able to correct those adding to my anxiety. Add on to that the fact that I have circumstances beyond my control arriving tomorrow that will drain me of any energy that I manage to build up tonight, and well, like I said before, it's rough knowing that the next 24 hours are going to suck.
I always feel like I have to be the one who knows what's going on with the weather because I need to know what's going on with the things I can't control. You don't really know what it's like to feel powerless to a storm, until your sifting through the destroyed homes of a neighborhood you have visited regularly since you were born. I truly fear what would happen to me, mentally, if I were ever in a building in the direct line of a tornado. It's one of my biggest fears just because I don't know how I will come out the other side of it.
But here I lie, the storm arriving and I have to be up, so I can know what to expect, and so if anyone should ask, or start rattling off incorrect information I can correct them, and make myself feel better. I know that the round after round of storms is going to hit during a particularly long shift at work where I will be unable to see what is going on outside. I will sit at my register, powerless, and without knowledge, of the advancing storms and I will not be able to correct those adding to my anxiety. Add on to that the fact that I have circumstances beyond my control arriving tomorrow that will drain me of any energy that I manage to build up tonight, and well, like I said before, it's rough knowing that the next 24 hours are going to suck.