2013: THE NEW ERA
Because I feel that someday I will be a very important and influential person, if not to the entire world at the very least to my family, I have decided to keep a regular journal, and have decided that the continuation of my archived "nobody understands me/ I am an untreated bipolar teenager" days will do just fine.
to bring whomever reads this in the future (future me included) up to speed, I will do my best to quickly summarize or itemize the events of the past few years.
2010: rose from the murky depths of suicidal depression and willed myself back into reality. moved out of the basement, got the stupid camry, lived with paige on oak and lovell. drank a lot, hooked up with a ton of women, worked for brad at b&b yardscape during the spring/summer/fall. went back to school in the fall, also moved in with bryan and jenna which turned out to be a huge mistake. banged jenna, then started banging our other roommates ex girlfriend a month after they broke up.
2011: started dating roommates ex girlfriend in january, moved in with her on grant street in march. was working at dimplex thermal solutions and got dicked over. good, that job sucked, and i went back to work for brad. the love I felt for this girl, this chelsea, however misplaced and wasted it might have been, was the most intense and passionate thing I have ever felt in my life, and I fear I may die before experiencing anything like it again. we lived happily for about 2 months and then things got bad. bad for me, I worked my ass off to support both of us and she just turned out to be a rotten egg. drove me to insanity and despair. nothing could have prepared me for the darkness I faced here. started working for fields helping doug do installs in october.
2012: by now I was completely zombified. chelsea made me depressed, my job made me depressed (because I could only work one day a week), the bills started falling behind again, no help from chelsea, shit sucked. by may I finally developed the courage to do what had needed to be done for over a year. I dumped chelsea. It sucked. I got super depressed and suicidal again, tried to get her back for some reason, and spent the rest of the summer occupying myself with whatever I could to distract me from the emptiness and hopelessness that I felt. started dating rylie kinda. shitloads of school. got fired in july. havent been employed since. feel like shit. too much school.
2013: january and february flew by just like all of last fall and winter did. I sit here in this house surrounded by mindless distractions and incompetent people. I have become antisocial, hostile, angry, unresponsive, indifferent, lethargic, lazy, and ultimately depressed. hopefully spring and getting my associates will breathe new life into me. I transfer to ferris for my bachelors program in the fall. I am gaining back little by little what determination I had, and my goals are in sight. I am very close to feeling free again. mom and dad have been continually supportive and I owe everything I own and everything I have achieved to them directly.
this is a very very condensed relation of the past couple years and I intend to expand upon it in great detail some other time when its not 2 am.
P.S. if you comment on my livejournal posts youre an ass clown. what are you doing? go away, this is for me not whoever the fuck i thought you were in 2005.
to bring whomever reads this in the future (future me included) up to speed, I will do my best to quickly summarize or itemize the events of the past few years.
2010: rose from the murky depths of suicidal depression and willed myself back into reality. moved out of the basement, got the stupid camry, lived with paige on oak and lovell. drank a lot, hooked up with a ton of women, worked for brad at b&b yardscape during the spring/summer/fall. went back to school in the fall, also moved in with bryan and jenna which turned out to be a huge mistake. banged jenna, then started banging our other roommates ex girlfriend a month after they broke up.
2011: started dating roommates ex girlfriend in january, moved in with her on grant street in march. was working at dimplex thermal solutions and got dicked over. good, that job sucked, and i went back to work for brad. the love I felt for this girl, this chelsea, however misplaced and wasted it might have been, was the most intense and passionate thing I have ever felt in my life, and I fear I may die before experiencing anything like it again. we lived happily for about 2 months and then things got bad. bad for me, I worked my ass off to support both of us and she just turned out to be a rotten egg. drove me to insanity and despair. nothing could have prepared me for the darkness I faced here. started working for fields helping doug do installs in october.
2012: by now I was completely zombified. chelsea made me depressed, my job made me depressed (because I could only work one day a week), the bills started falling behind again, no help from chelsea, shit sucked. by may I finally developed the courage to do what had needed to be done for over a year. I dumped chelsea. It sucked. I got super depressed and suicidal again, tried to get her back for some reason, and spent the rest of the summer occupying myself with whatever I could to distract me from the emptiness and hopelessness that I felt. started dating rylie kinda. shitloads of school. got fired in july. havent been employed since. feel like shit. too much school.
2013: january and february flew by just like all of last fall and winter did. I sit here in this house surrounded by mindless distractions and incompetent people. I have become antisocial, hostile, angry, unresponsive, indifferent, lethargic, lazy, and ultimately depressed. hopefully spring and getting my associates will breathe new life into me. I transfer to ferris for my bachelors program in the fall. I am gaining back little by little what determination I had, and my goals are in sight. I am very close to feeling free again. mom and dad have been continually supportive and I owe everything I own and everything I have achieved to them directly.
this is a very very condensed relation of the past couple years and I intend to expand upon it in great detail some other time when its not 2 am.
P.S. if you comment on my livejournal posts youre an ass clown. what are you doing? go away, this is for me not whoever the fuck i thought you were in 2005.