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I think I am going insane. I believe that Nick going to a new job in Hartford may be good for us. I feel as though I am restless, as usual. Not in the relationship, per say, but just in life in general. I want to move to London right now, but not really.. just an idealized London where it doesnt rain too much and I can pretend to be British and run around saying things like 'Cheerio' and 'Righto Love' in a fun accent..I don't know what's wrong with me. When I find someone who is good for me and I can trust, he's almost too independent and introverted; but when I'm with someone who loves partying and going out, he's not very trustworthy and rather belligerent at times..definitely not really someone I would want to have as a father of my children or a husband at that...BLEH.. I hate that I overthink everything in my life and make a big deal out of the stupidest little things!!!! UGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHH i need therapy... whatever