ventures
the last time i was in a tour was more than a decade ago. i was young and, on most trips going to different sites, i would put on my headphones and waited until the bus rocked me to sleep or when it stopped for us to get off. i figured that traveling was very normal and easy until a few years back when realized the difficulties of traveling. even then, i found myself shying away from group tours beecause:
a. i am socially inept
b. i felt constricted with the schedule given in a tour
in any case, i decided to leave my ipod at home and listen to the tour guides. thankfully, on both countries, it did not disappoint.
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there are times that i wish i took less pictures during the tour, and times i wish i took more. same goes with souvenirs, or shopping for myself. being better in retaining information regarding history. being less shy. being more confident. being more upfront. more out there.
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the worst thing about traveling is the feeling of stasis when coming back home. sometimes, the illusion of being infatuated with something/someone masks loneliness or heightens the things that are not readily available for us in life (unlike what you see in travel).
this is why, even though i refuse to be part of my family business, i am tempted to step into it just so i can have a chance to get away from everything else.
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from the time i revealed my encounter in tokyo with friends up until now, there was a noticable distancing. from lessened chats to rudeness to finally indirect conversation without eye contact. i do not know what to make of it. initially, i thought it to be insulting, but i suppose it's alright too in its own way. but this gives me more reason why i want to leave this place. currently, i realized that i don't want a boy, or just some guy, or dude. i want a classy gentleman who doesn't try hard to be one and who knows what he wants. and it's such a problem that there's a lack of it here.
a. i am socially inept
b. i felt constricted with the schedule given in a tour
in any case, i decided to leave my ipod at home and listen to the tour guides. thankfully, on both countries, it did not disappoint.
_________
there are times that i wish i took less pictures during the tour, and times i wish i took more. same goes with souvenirs, or shopping for myself. being better in retaining information regarding history. being less shy. being more confident. being more upfront. more out there.
_________
the worst thing about traveling is the feeling of stasis when coming back home. sometimes, the illusion of being infatuated with something/someone masks loneliness or heightens the things that are not readily available for us in life (unlike what you see in travel).
this is why, even though i refuse to be part of my family business, i am tempted to step into it just so i can have a chance to get away from everything else.
_________
from the time i revealed my encounter in tokyo with friends up until now, there was a noticable distancing. from lessened chats to rudeness to finally indirect conversation without eye contact. i do not know what to make of it. initially, i thought it to be insulting, but i suppose it's alright too in its own way. but this gives me more reason why i want to leave this place. currently, i realized that i don't want a boy, or just some guy, or dude. i want a classy gentleman who doesn't try hard to be one and who knows what he wants. and it's such a problem that there's a lack of it here.