what is going on?!
well the past few months have been really tough. in august my grandmother passed away and now today at 6pm my grandfather passed away. all this loss has made me really think about things, like what am i supposed to do with the short amount of time ive got to work with? it makes me think about all the time i waste sitting around a tv or computer keeping to myself.
ive seen how important family is to a person. its more important that your friends. its more important than some show you want to go to. its more important than some stupid wave youre waiting to catch. when everything seems to go wrong family is all you truly have in life.
it sucks to have to finally see all this at the expense of two loved ones. i feel terrible now looking back when i didnt want to go visit my family cause i would rather be out with my friends. the times i stayed behind while my parents went to visit... what if that had been my last chance to see them?! to say goodbye?!
i really dont know what the purpose of this entry is, im not trying to preach to anyone or make people realize anything. its just sort of my way of venting right now. ya know? im sure others have been where i am right now and they know exactly whats going on in my head. for all those who have felt this way before i am truly sorry because this is the worst feeling a person can have in life. that helpless feeling that you couldnt do a thing to help a loved one in need. im just drown back right now and im waiting for the pain to sink in. im at school for the night until tomorrow when i head home for easter break and the wake.
ive seen how important family is to a person. its more important that your friends. its more important than some show you want to go to. its more important than some stupid wave youre waiting to catch. when everything seems to go wrong family is all you truly have in life.
it sucks to have to finally see all this at the expense of two loved ones. i feel terrible now looking back when i didnt want to go visit my family cause i would rather be out with my friends. the times i stayed behind while my parents went to visit... what if that had been my last chance to see them?! to say goodbye?!
i really dont know what the purpose of this entry is, im not trying to preach to anyone or make people realize anything. its just sort of my way of venting right now. ya know? im sure others have been where i am right now and they know exactly whats going on in my head. for all those who have felt this way before i am truly sorry because this is the worst feeling a person can have in life. that helpless feeling that you couldnt do a thing to help a loved one in need. im just drown back right now and im waiting for the pain to sink in. im at school for the night until tomorrow when i head home for easter break and the wake.