I dont understand, and I don't want to either
I really like it when you think you had a really great group of friends and then all the sudden something happens and everyone starts to act totally different. It seems like since I've been up at central, whenever I talk to the "group" back home, or even attempt to have a conversation with them, because yes, I'm a friend and I actually care about people other then myself, all i get is attittude. Its either everyone is in a pissy mood lately, or else you guys just don't really give a shit about hurting my feelings anymore, either way, save it.
About a month before school started i was thinking about coming home every other weekend because I figured a month was too long to go without seeing everybody and coming home every week was just going to be a waste of gas. Now I don't really have a reason to come home, besides seeing my family, since they are the only one that seems to care.
The only people that have even called me are Carrie and my parents. And I know what you all are thinking "well you don't call us." Yes, I know, it runs both ways but for those of you who really know me...I dont call anyone. Leah, Brad, Dan and Laura came up to visit us (Thanks guys) last tuesday, so I know they still want to keep in touch.
I don't really know what my point is, I'm just trying to say that I hope to god you guys don't forget about me and I just become "that girl that we used to hang out with." I know its rare to stay friends with the people you were friends with in highschool but it hasn't even been a month since school has started and it already feels like im losing you guys. It seems like theres the life I knew in ortonville, and now the life I'm trying to make up here. Some of you have been telling me "Oh you're so lucky that you're going away to school." But its not easy. Its not easy trying to meet people and find other people to hang out with when I know eventually my room mates are going to get sick of me. Its not easy having to think about all the other people your friends back at home are meeting and all the fun thier having, while your not there. And the hardest thing is thinking about the person they might meet who's eventually going to replace you. I went away for just a change of things and to be more independent, to really find out what i want out of life, I didn't come up here to escape everyone. So the next time I talk to any of you, please don't blow me off and act like I'm the one who is trying to forget about you guys.
And sorry if you guys don't agree with any of this, its just how I feel, i can't help it. I'm sick of just going along and acting like everythings ok. I don't care if I'm being bitchy, I just needed to get this off my chest.
About a month before school started i was thinking about coming home every other weekend because I figured a month was too long to go without seeing everybody and coming home every week was just going to be a waste of gas. Now I don't really have a reason to come home, besides seeing my family, since they are the only one that seems to care.
The only people that have even called me are Carrie and my parents. And I know what you all are thinking "well you don't call us." Yes, I know, it runs both ways but for those of you who really know me...I dont call anyone. Leah, Brad, Dan and Laura came up to visit us (Thanks guys) last tuesday, so I know they still want to keep in touch.
I don't really know what my point is, I'm just trying to say that I hope to god you guys don't forget about me and I just become "that girl that we used to hang out with." I know its rare to stay friends with the people you were friends with in highschool but it hasn't even been a month since school has started and it already feels like im losing you guys. It seems like theres the life I knew in ortonville, and now the life I'm trying to make up here. Some of you have been telling me "Oh you're so lucky that you're going away to school." But its not easy. Its not easy trying to meet people and find other people to hang out with when I know eventually my room mates are going to get sick of me. Its not easy having to think about all the other people your friends back at home are meeting and all the fun thier having, while your not there. And the hardest thing is thinking about the person they might meet who's eventually going to replace you. I went away for just a change of things and to be more independent, to really find out what i want out of life, I didn't come up here to escape everyone. So the next time I talk to any of you, please don't blow me off and act like I'm the one who is trying to forget about you guys.
And sorry if you guys don't agree with any of this, its just how I feel, i can't help it. I'm sick of just going along and acting like everythings ok. I don't care if I'm being bitchy, I just needed to get this off my chest.