babbling........
There's a video game that I have actually come to want to play. Its called Rockband. And i love playin with my brother and my family. Playing it made me realize how much I miss the orchestra and playing within one. Playing my viola. For days now I've been meaning to take out my viola. Tune it up, and play some of the Hollywood/Disney songs that I have in books. I miss playing. I miss just being part of that. I think that's part of the reason I have come to enjoy this game. Its me sort of playing an instrument. Without having to worry bout tuning.
Another thing I realized while I was playing tonight and talking to people. I miss going out at night. Rarely was I home this much. Ever. Lot of times I pretty much lived at everyone elses home. I was tempted to drive up to greeley to just hang out with Christina at her apartment. My nights are still good, I mean i have a handsome amazing man thats by my side each night. FANTASTIC. But different.It affects me some days and some days it doesn't. I am happy that I am making money again so that I can afford to go out. Though I still have debts to pay off. I don't really know if Dani truly means she wants to get into an apartment with me. I think that she's going into one with me cause her rents wont let her get one with Joe. Everytime I talk to her it comes up of how Joe keeps asking to live with her. And lately when I ask about it, she just says she hasn't called or what not. So I am staying on edge and not putting too much faith into how this is all going to work out. I don't wanna go down the road i went the last time things started going wrongly/differently.
Its funny how I could still successfully play the game but all of this stuff was running through my mind. I miss xtina. Me and suzy aren't talking as much right now cause i started shit as usual. But its hard not to with her sometimes. Oh and I have absolutely fallen in love with Enchanted. MCDREAMY!!!!!!! I almost don't want to send it back. But I probably will tomorrow cause I want to watch all the other things on my Netflix list. Next is the Perfect Creature. I am also trying to read all the current anita blake books so that I am up to date with Blood Noir comes out on May 27th. Then I'll be able to read the Stephanie Meyer books and I wanna get that Jane goodall book. I have a lot on my mind sorry. But mainly on the top priority is to pay off my debts and work. I am so excited for Hawaii. To swim in the ocean, enjoy the sun. I still need to work out some more and buy a bathing suit. Be around my family and relax. To be with my boy and watch the sun set over the ocean. Night walks in the sand. I am such a romantic, i appologize, and many many thoughts are running through my mind. But no matter what happens I'll be happy just to be in Hawaii. lol.
I WANT TO GO DANCING!!!!!!!!
sorry I'll stop babbling....
Another thing I realized while I was playing tonight and talking to people. I miss going out at night. Rarely was I home this much. Ever. Lot of times I pretty much lived at everyone elses home. I was tempted to drive up to greeley to just hang out with Christina at her apartment. My nights are still good, I mean i have a handsome amazing man thats by my side each night. FANTASTIC. But different.It affects me some days and some days it doesn't. I am happy that I am making money again so that I can afford to go out. Though I still have debts to pay off. I don't really know if Dani truly means she wants to get into an apartment with me. I think that she's going into one with me cause her rents wont let her get one with Joe. Everytime I talk to her it comes up of how Joe keeps asking to live with her. And lately when I ask about it, she just says she hasn't called or what not. So I am staying on edge and not putting too much faith into how this is all going to work out. I don't wanna go down the road i went the last time things started going wrongly/differently.
Its funny how I could still successfully play the game but all of this stuff was running through my mind. I miss xtina. Me and suzy aren't talking as much right now cause i started shit as usual. But its hard not to with her sometimes. Oh and I have absolutely fallen in love with Enchanted. MCDREAMY!!!!!!! I almost don't want to send it back. But I probably will tomorrow cause I want to watch all the other things on my Netflix list. Next is the Perfect Creature. I am also trying to read all the current anita blake books so that I am up to date with Blood Noir comes out on May 27th. Then I'll be able to read the Stephanie Meyer books and I wanna get that Jane goodall book. I have a lot on my mind sorry. But mainly on the top priority is to pay off my debts and work. I am so excited for Hawaii. To swim in the ocean, enjoy the sun. I still need to work out some more and buy a bathing suit. Be around my family and relax. To be with my boy and watch the sun set over the ocean. Night walks in the sand. I am such a romantic, i appologize, and many many thoughts are running through my mind. But no matter what happens I'll be happy just to be in Hawaii. lol.
I WANT TO GO DANCING!!!!!!!!
sorry I'll stop babbling....