Leave me alone
F-ck man, the brain hasnt stopped and its past 3 am.
I need sleep. I need rest.
I dont need this crap.
Too much thinking, too much analyzing, I cant even type the thoughts onto the screen.
F-cking brain has just gone to sh-t and I didnt notice.
What the hell man??
This wasn't the case before.
I had something productive up there.
Looks like last week's mind trip is the sign of things to come.
Didn't crash till about 9am the next day. Ughs.
I noticed the change has started slowly, but I can feel the tide coming in strong.
Hanging out with J today really hit and helped open my eye to what I was doing wrong all this time.
I can somewhat understand why it all went to hell now.
DA, GD or Writer.
3 roads but I have to follow one.
It doesnt feel fair.
I can do all 3 but I don't seem to understand that by doing so,
I wont be productive to my best ability.
I'm better than that.
More importantly I'm tired of this f-cking bullsh-t of not being done.
I'm finally seeing where and why and how its been killing me slowly inside.
Looks like I danced with the devil or something cause it makes no sense why I'd do something that stupid.
Still cant believe how quickly she picked up on all this though.
Then again its no surprise coming from a psychologist.
Your supposed to pick up on that sorta thing.
Hell what the hell should I expect from a master in the field.
But what the f-ck I didn't even know her?!
She read my vibe like the words on this screen
Still getting over the fact that I wasn't able to see it till now, but she said NOW is when I was ready to do so. But why?! what was the point? Questions that likely don't need to be answered anyway. Whats important is knowing the bump is over and the road still lays ahead. You tripped mutherf-cker now get your ass up!
Ive been binging on writing and the pieces are slowly getting better or it just feels good to write it out.Too fn lazy to retype them so Ill have to scan em in and post.
Stupid f-cking brain! Take a f-cking step back and slow the f-ck down so I can gather the thoughts and mold them to words I can come back to. All these scrambling thoughts do me no good.
I got deadlines to make
I have time I can't waste.
I want to get moving in the right direction.
My time is now and I'm ready to go.
Lets try a quick piece:
With heavy grunts and growls he ripped the binds that held his wrists behind him.
ah f-ck this..Ill finish it up on the pad.
Im outta here.
Goodnight.
I need sleep. I need rest.
I dont need this crap.
Too much thinking, too much analyzing, I cant even type the thoughts onto the screen.
F-cking brain has just gone to sh-t and I didnt notice.
What the hell man??
This wasn't the case before.
I had something productive up there.
Looks like last week's mind trip is the sign of things to come.
Didn't crash till about 9am the next day. Ughs.
I noticed the change has started slowly, but I can feel the tide coming in strong.
Hanging out with J today really hit and helped open my eye to what I was doing wrong all this time.
I can somewhat understand why it all went to hell now.
DA, GD or Writer.
3 roads but I have to follow one.
It doesnt feel fair.
I can do all 3 but I don't seem to understand that by doing so,
I wont be productive to my best ability.
I'm better than that.
More importantly I'm tired of this f-cking bullsh-t of not being done.
I'm finally seeing where and why and how its been killing me slowly inside.
Looks like I danced with the devil or something cause it makes no sense why I'd do something that stupid.
Still cant believe how quickly she picked up on all this though.
Then again its no surprise coming from a psychologist.
Your supposed to pick up on that sorta thing.
Hell what the hell should I expect from a master in the field.
But what the f-ck I didn't even know her?!
She read my vibe like the words on this screen
Still getting over the fact that I wasn't able to see it till now, but she said NOW is when I was ready to do so. But why?! what was the point? Questions that likely don't need to be answered anyway. Whats important is knowing the bump is over and the road still lays ahead. You tripped mutherf-cker now get your ass up!
Ive been binging on writing and the pieces are slowly getting better or it just feels good to write it out.Too fn lazy to retype them so Ill have to scan em in and post.
Stupid f-cking brain! Take a f-cking step back and slow the f-ck down so I can gather the thoughts and mold them to words I can come back to. All these scrambling thoughts do me no good.
I got deadlines to make
I have time I can't waste.
I want to get moving in the right direction.
My time is now and I'm ready to go.
Lets try a quick piece:
With heavy grunts and growls he ripped the binds that held his wrists behind him.
ah f-ck this..Ill finish it up on the pad.
Im outta here.
Goodnight.