A Change for the Better
It makes me laugh out loud when I go back in time and view entries I posted in high school, all the way up to now. I was such a drama king back then and everything seemed to piss me off. It's crazy when you think about it, how life experience can make you change as much as I have now. As far as stress is concerned, I do my best to stay away from it, and even when I'm confronted by it, I just push it away by trying to be as positive as possible. I rarely fight with Amy, but when we start to bicker, I say something cheesy to make her laugh and we're fine once again.
Like I've posted in the past, I regret treating people the way that I have, because I let stupid shit get to me. It's not worth staying angry with people because nothing good comes out of it really, unless their nonexistence can be considered a good thing. In some cases, I suppose that's true. I'm beginning to think that maybe some day soon it will be time to move onto the next stage of my life before I mess up again and make a bad decision. I guess that I finally figured out the problem. After the last time I did that, I got hurt in the end, mainly because of my own selfishness I guess. But then again, I was young and stupid. Ever since then I've been scared to pop the question because I don't want to go through that again.
But.....the longer you are with someone, the more you understand how things will be down the road, and in this case, I like what I see. Coming home to the woman I love with a huge cheese eating grin on her face makes me more than happy, and knowing that her happiness is constant makes me believe that I'm doing my job right.
Call me pathetic once again, but to a certain someone, who I'm sure you know who you are, I'm still sorry about how much of a dick I was to you. I wanted to message you to see how you're doing but I don't have the guts to because it seems you're well off without me in your life entirely. But I understand. I also wanted to congratulate you on your marriage and your new baby. Hope life is treating you well. God bless you and your family! :)
Like I've posted in the past, I regret treating people the way that I have, because I let stupid shit get to me. It's not worth staying angry with people because nothing good comes out of it really, unless their nonexistence can be considered a good thing. In some cases, I suppose that's true. I'm beginning to think that maybe some day soon it will be time to move onto the next stage of my life before I mess up again and make a bad decision. I guess that I finally figured out the problem. After the last time I did that, I got hurt in the end, mainly because of my own selfishness I guess. But then again, I was young and stupid. Ever since then I've been scared to pop the question because I don't want to go through that again.
But.....the longer you are with someone, the more you understand how things will be down the road, and in this case, I like what I see. Coming home to the woman I love with a huge cheese eating grin on her face makes me more than happy, and knowing that her happiness is constant makes me believe that I'm doing my job right.
Call me pathetic once again, but to a certain someone, who I'm sure you know who you are, I'm still sorry about how much of a dick I was to you. I wanted to message you to see how you're doing but I don't have the guts to because it seems you're well off without me in your life entirely. But I understand. I also wanted to congratulate you on your marriage and your new baby. Hope life is treating you well. God bless you and your family! :)