Hope, dangles by a string....
Today is the first day I have been back in my grandmas house since the summer. The house seems so empty, and Im useta walking in haveing her greet me, and today she wasn't there. I didn't get to hear...well theres my lil' miss priss, it's just so werid walking in. Everything in the house has changed, but there are still lots of things that bring her presence to where she almost exist in the house.
It's just so werid ya know. I guess depression plays games on us, and it seems like nothing has changed until we as humans wake up then it's like a bug hitting the windshield. When it hits, it's hard as hell to accept it. It's like your actually standing there waiting for your nightmare to colapse.
It's even in the game of love, we seem to take things for granted, then all of a sudden it either crashes down or we just give up in trying to make it work. Right now, Im sitting here just watching my world circle around me, and it's going so fast that I just can't grasp anything thats happening. I have a tendancy of living in my past and my future, and I forget about the present. I lose complete thought or feeling of being and I focus on whats going to happen, not whats happening now!
Maybe im to vindicative, or maybe I just need to give up on everything and just be something that Im really not capable of being. Im slipping away from all of my existance, maybe everyone would be better off without me!
It's just so werid ya know. I guess depression plays games on us, and it seems like nothing has changed until we as humans wake up then it's like a bug hitting the windshield. When it hits, it's hard as hell to accept it. It's like your actually standing there waiting for your nightmare to colapse.
It's even in the game of love, we seem to take things for granted, then all of a sudden it either crashes down or we just give up in trying to make it work. Right now, Im sitting here just watching my world circle around me, and it's going so fast that I just can't grasp anything thats happening. I have a tendancy of living in my past and my future, and I forget about the present. I lose complete thought or feeling of being and I focus on whats going to happen, not whats happening now!
Maybe im to vindicative, or maybe I just need to give up on everything and just be something that Im really not capable of being. Im slipping away from all of my existance, maybe everyone would be better off without me!