Watch me as I gravitate...Hahahaha
Today is a Saturday, actually very nice outside, all though we still have snow, hey the sun is shineing! Today has truely been disturbing to me, yet I could still just curl up in a ball and stay there.
This morning, I was getting ready to go to the bank, and I was feeding my pet rooster..Yea thats right I have a pet rooster named Cocky. Ne ways, There was a truck that was slowing down getting ready to pull into my drive way, and I looked up and it was my ex boyfriend (who I dated for 7 years). He didn't stop though, even if he did, I would have kicked his ass for everything that hes done to me. It was so disturbing because at one point I was actually thinking that I wouldn't hurt him. Its just a messed up part of the day I was having. It's like I have so much hate for him, yet I'd love to talk to him again, all though I really don't want to. I guess its because I dated this guy for 7 years of my life, and he'll always have a small part of my heart..and that really hurts. His new gurlfriend was driving my truck the other day, now that really hurt me! :( For some reason, it's really hard for me to grasp! I know that Im over him, yet I still find myself haveing dreams of things that him and I have done.
Im starting to think that maybe Ill never be able to grasp life again. I just hope like hell that something gives or takes so I can get back to being normal. Im just trying to undertand why it's so hard to forget what people have done. Its' so hard to put everything behind me and keep moving forward. Im better off now then I was, especially since I have Jase in my life. I don't know what else to write now, so Im going to go finish wrapping John's birthday gift.
This morning, I was getting ready to go to the bank, and I was feeding my pet rooster..Yea thats right I have a pet rooster named Cocky. Ne ways, There was a truck that was slowing down getting ready to pull into my drive way, and I looked up and it was my ex boyfriend (who I dated for 7 years). He didn't stop though, even if he did, I would have kicked his ass for everything that hes done to me. It was so disturbing because at one point I was actually thinking that I wouldn't hurt him. Its just a messed up part of the day I was having. It's like I have so much hate for him, yet I'd love to talk to him again, all though I really don't want to. I guess its because I dated this guy for 7 years of my life, and he'll always have a small part of my heart..and that really hurts. His new gurlfriend was driving my truck the other day, now that really hurt me! :( For some reason, it's really hard for me to grasp! I know that Im over him, yet I still find myself haveing dreams of things that him and I have done.
Im starting to think that maybe Ill never be able to grasp life again. I just hope like hell that something gives or takes so I can get back to being normal. Im just trying to undertand why it's so hard to forget what people have done. Its' so hard to put everything behind me and keep moving forward. Im better off now then I was, especially since I have Jase in my life. I don't know what else to write now, so Im going to go finish wrapping John's birthday gift.