Confused...

[spyderandmisty]

Okay I just got back from the barn, but I didn't ride. I went and got Milton and put him in his stall then Dawn came out and told me that Nicole's sister Rachel was coming out to ride him in about an hour and that I didn't need to ride him. She said that she is leasing him and taking him to circuit shows and that he is pretty much done with his training. So I guess I'm not riding him any more? Dawn didn't really say. She also said that he would probably be sold in 2 months. I don't know what to think right now. I need a hug. Poor Milton. I feel so bad for him! I wonder how he will do today? So I just said bye to Jenny and left. Poor Milton Boy! I feel so bad right now. I need help. I just don't know what to think right now???? I feel like crap. So I guess I am just riding my horse on Tuesdays...maybe I'll ride her today. I should go on a trail ride. I am not happy about any thing right now. Absolutely nothing. I don't know what to do with myself. I don't know what to think of this whole thing. One thing I do know is that Dawn is a total b****! And that I do feel extremely bad for Milton, but what can I do? Nothing. Just like with Vinny. I stand there and watch him be taken away by someone he doesn't even know. I wish I had a lot of money. I would buy Vinny AND Milton. I don't know how to feel. I don't know. I feel like crying. And all because of what?????? I don't know?????????????????????????????????????????? ::sigh:: I am glad the dance was good for all of you! That is the only thing I am happy about right now. Other peoples' happiness. I lead a sad life...........
I feel a lot better today, not as sick,but still a little, but not really sick-ish. Oh well does any one even care??? No. So I'll just go on living my sad pathetic life and you all go on living your full, happy little lives'.
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