"I just can't look it's killing me, and it's taking control...Jealousy.."
Alright sooooooooo it's been only a fort-night it seems since I last wrote in reality..prolly more than YEAR! Im at Winthrop right now my life is finally at a turning point of some kind... here I sit 5 years later and ready to say Im getting a DIVORCE! I prayed for it and, that he wouldn't love me so it wouldn't hurt im and it came true!~ He wants a baby I dont, we have absolutely nothing in common and, im ready to start my life point blank. I've wasted 5 fkn years of it. I've changed so much even in the past year. I dunno whether im gonn stay in Rock Hill or go to Columbia with Ant in AUG. i might start college there in Religions or Philosophy(Hello Mrs. PHYLLIS-OFFICLE) LMFAO FEFE KNOWS WUT IM RANTING ON ABOUT! Anyways as evvvvvvvveryone knows how i feel he does to and i know he loves me in his own twisted fkt up way and, he wants me to go so ima think about it. I gotta take my baby Halo though and in an apartment he might not be alloud. Ive got about 2 mos. to make up my mind though. Id like to mention what happened with the guy he met and what happened one day this week but, im not disclosing the poor thing's buisness(all i can say is im glad i have a hand in being able to help him sum ways!) i may feel jealousy but, not the kind that makes me want to tamper with his heart and, whom he might blah blah blah eh then nuff bout my other half. How about the other part of my brain Fefe hmm we needta go to DMV tagether soon lol. I had soooooooooooo much fun at Scorpi-ho's sunday night(apparently too much) waiting to see everyon'es pics cuz i cant believe my ears) eeeeeeep lol i rem. most of the night but, i feel as though i blacked out at sum point. Anyone else like "THE KILLERS"??????? IM bout to see if they are touring any place near here i wann c them in concert he needs a hug too. Gotta go to the gyno today wonder-fkn-ful that woman needs ta get out of the dark ages she still uses the (oooooooooooh nooooooooooo...plastic clamps) eeeeep ouchhhhhh. I've cancelled like 4 appointments in the past 2 mos. so I believe that i'll just go to this one at 10:30 blaaahhhhhhhh. I must go to the Optometrist soon I havent been in almost 4 years and, im going friggin blind. Well i must speak of my dream from 2am til bout 5:30 this mornin...starts out with me and fefe ina van on way to a concert then we get there and it's like all grunged out and almost living room like in that it was a smaller fkn venue than Tremont so...we (as i say) were crowd surfing but, not really cuz we were on top of sum bars like sitting and laying 8 ft. in the air then the first girl band cums out lookin all old skool "goth-ed" out and right when she was ready to start singing i yelled at her(i think i called her a pussy-bitch cunt-fucking whore)...(i must have had Liquor in me)lol so then the crowd got all(grrrrrrrrrrrr fight...fight...fight..grrrrrroooooooooowl) so she sang one line then told me to come down then i yelled at her while jumping down and, still with Mic. in hand she started pulling this Kung-Fu type shit and throwing punches to my face I blocked every single fucking move then i beat her ass down to the fkn ground(ooooooooooh even in a dream that aggression letting was wonderful!)then they picked her up fixed her pretty ass all up and they sang(it was so JACK OFF JILL-ISH!) Then Fefe and, I saw an old woman all ocvered in glitter so we asked her how she did it and. she pointed to a booth. We walked over to a booth of makeup and brochures to 6 (Paris-like) girls and they were bitch's so well u know i grabbed the prettiest pinkest one up by her hair and kicked her ass. Fefe and, I then stole all the make-up products and, found out they were Jessica simpsons(since im all into buying her LICK ME LICK ME LICK ME(AS I CALL THEM) shimmers and shit) And by the way to the ppl. i molesticated sun. night and told to lick me i'm sorry and, was told by fefe that when her mama said I smelled good I told her she could lick me! ummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm bye now everyone no email but, i am accepting comments SHODAT! GOD BLESS YOU
NOTE:The killers will be palying at The house of blues in myrtle beach on june 10th guess that'll be my b-day wish
NOTE:The killers will be palying at The house of blues in myrtle beach on june 10th guess that'll be my b-day wish