why???????????
why am i the way i am why why why sumone tell me a logical fucking explanation pleasessssssssss i feel so horrible at this point ive left and im still bored doing the same damned thing and its only now 2 days fkn away from me spending the weekend with stephen and now im making up excuses and he even wants to take me FINALLY to go party with all his buddies and still im thinking up and making excuses of why i cant see him is it b/c i know ill feel so much and i dont want to o ram i just a fkt up individual who likes to take people down to their breaking point then get them in my grasp to only roll myself right over them the way i do why why why do i do these damn things what am i scared of what is it am i afraid of real love or am i afraid nothing will ever werk out so i just want to party and have meaningless ex with ppl ive just met or known a long time why? if any one person can actually answer this i deem you a merit of honor b/c i cant even figure my damned ass out should i go with stephen this weekend er make um sum lame damn excuse hes even blowing off going to gastonia to see his auntie with his rents and now im lying to him!