The Radio
Title : The Radio
Author : spyce10
Pairing : Gri and Big Bang
Genre : Fluff and Angst
A/N : Bad grammar so spare me.... Happy reading guys
Foreword
Seungri is a radio announcer at unfamous radio company.
He is doing this job because he really likes to talk and by the way he is freelance worker at that company.
He is doing this job with all his heart and effort, he hope and still wishing somebody will listens to him after lack of responder.
Every night at 121.29 FM radio channel with Seungri as the radio announcer, he is working on the radio program with his truly confident mantra and the topic that always been given to him without hesitation.
Four thumbs including the feet finger that will be easy to describe on how Seungri hard working as a radio announcer every night.
The task is easy for him to host on the segment of the radio program for years but one day everything going wrong and not right.
Less perfect skill evens worse type of talks suddenly appears in his life and become nightmares for entire life.
The talk’s show that he likes the most changed into disaster life likes what did you do last summer movie?
He is being numb and blind for the whole time since he never expected that little old secret will be reveal in the radio that he host.
With the entire listener who tuned on the radio channel that he host that night and hear the fact what actually happened with Seungri life before back those years..... The dark side of Seungri.......
He refused to remember and rejecting his brain to catch up on the flying thought of secret memories back into those years........
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Jiyong is a loner but he is really smart.
He tried to push himself at the limit that no other can probably do.
Fashionista, Brilliant, Smart, and Rich of Passion are the Label that sticks after his name.
Always want to be perfect label name in people eyes. He tried so hard to make people believe that he can almost do everything but the more he tried to become perfect in people eyes, the more he became exhausted by the fact of reality.
It's like two personalities in his life. The fake G Dragon and the real Kwon Jiyong.
During day light he became the perfectionist G Dragon..... During the night he became Kwon Jiyong the simply loner guy that you can meet at the street.
Nobody really knows his real personality for years or might be they just do not care until one day......
Someone..... Someone..... Stranger that changes his life all sudden and he has to make U-turn from his boring life.
Even he just only can hear the voice from that person. Surprising that His life being charger by the power of that voice.....
The voice Dig every gap in his heart that he refuse to admit for long time. Revealing the real Kwon Jiyong and burry the fake G Dragon for the first time in his story life.
The only thing is he never expecting that the reality vs. dream can be so cruel and sad for Jiyong the loner handsome guy.
He always had been hurt and sad before but then..... Every time he listens to the voice at the radio channel can made him forgot of all the sorrow that suffocates him.
Happiness and admiration on the voice became Jiyong daily doses of medication that he indeed need to take every day.
Addiction by the voice keep him survive from all those bad and good years....... Everybody must have a secret that does not like to admit.
Less than perfect Kwon Jiyong also cannot escape from the secret that hunts him down. The little dirty old secret.......
The secret that he swears to himself to keep it until he will dead......
Chapter 1
"Hello everyone.....May all of you have a good day. I am V.I the radio host for you tonight. Are you feeling happy to hear me now? Ok... Let's begin the segment for tonight. Are you ready? But before we start the segment, let me play your favorite song for tonight. How do I know your favorite song? You can call or send SMS to 18888 and I will definitely play your song but do not be sad if I cannot play your favorite song because tomorrow night I will play your favorite song that I promise. So let's hear the first request favorite song from ID 1503.... Perfect from Simple Plan. May you enjoy your beautiful night"
Every midnight radio broadcast will be on live with Seungri as a side job as a radio announcer with the nickname he had V.I.
For several years this work through Seungri is a great pleasure for him.
This is a job that is not boring for Seungri because he was very happy to talk in the air.
Seungri holds the document in his hand and wearing his glasses to more clearly see the writing on that paper. Advertising now playing on the radio is almost completed and Seungri has prepared the materials segment to be in the conversation by a radio script.
Seungri put the headphones on his ears and he gets ready for broadcast again in the radio...
The radio companies are not so well known by people. The radio listeners are also not a lot but there is a small loyal following of listeners who still listen the midnight radio show by Seungri the host.
The paid for Seungri work not too big but Seungri very satisfied with this work may even be said Seungri wants to do this job forever.
After ending his air work that morning, Seungri be told by TOP the radio company's corporate director of the radio said that the company will soon be closed because of the crisis on the verge of bankruptcy.
Seungri felt very sad and trying to convince TOP to save the radio until the end of this month.
He wanted to help these radio companies can survive like in previous years but this time not the same problems that TOP faced. Seungri and TOP were friends since they were in college. Another reason why Seungri work for this company because he wanted to help TOP in return for helping Seungri in the college back those years. Seungri took a deep breath on the way home and still figuring out how to save TOP Radio Company. Seungri really hope that, there will be ways to save on the radio ratings company.
Seungri cannot sleep as usual. How could he sleep in this situation? Seungri get out of bed and walked into the kitchen.
"You still awake?" Daesung walked through the door and wave his hand to Seungri.
"Ah .... I was a lot of thought. Would you like a cup of tea? "Seungri said while holding his neck as he warmed the pot of water on the stove.
"Thank you. I am very tired today. I think you should try to work until the morning to accompany a musician.... I was very damn tired" Daesung ruffled his hair as he sat in the dining room chairs. Seungri just smiled because this was not the first time Daesung say this. Seungri may have hundreds or thousands of time listening to this from Daesung mouth.
Seungri and Daesung are roommates since three years ago.
They accidentally met at a fashion show held at one of the famous hotel in Seoul.
Seungri is the designer clothe that is still amateurs. He stills has to learn a lot from the seniors there. Seungri aspirations are divulging the time to make the exhibition design clothes by Seungri own label.
Over the past three years Seungri has been drawing a lot of design clothes work but Seungri is still not confident enough with his design of work.
"What make you cannot sleep today?" Daesung began blowing his glass that stills hot.
"I'm likely had to stop my work on the radio" Seungri sitting opposite Daesung.
"What? Why? You love the job" Daesung looked straight to Seungri face as he puts his hot tea from his hand. "Arrgh.... TOP said the radio company almost went bankrupt currently. I also do not want to stop the job now but I am just saying there is the possibility" Seungri flexing his shoulders and began to rub his forehead with his fingers.
"What? Bankrupt? TOP? OMG" Daesung holding his mouth with his fingers suddenly....
Seungri was surprised to see Daesung that look very surprised or may say a bit over reacting. Seungri was in vain told Daesung because he knows Daesung cannot help him much. Seungri stood up and began walking toward his bedroom as he patted Daesung shoulder, he is still holding his mouth with his fingers.
Seungri walked around the city during the day. Today he still does not sleep and was still anxious to the issue that comes up with TOP Company.
Will TOP delayed until the end of this month? Seungri really doubt this case because TOP was looking very stressed the last time he sees him this morning.
Today Seungri also cannot draw anything because almost his entire mind focused with the problem of TOP. His dark circles in the eyes became more and Seungri looks so tired and he finally decided to return home for sleep. For a moment he wanted to forget about this problem immediately...
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GD is very busy with his work as a composer and songwriter. Quite a lot of famous songs are already composed by him and became a hit on the all chart. As a composer and songwriter GD requires inspiration and idea for the songs that he composed. While GD wrote the song based on the experience of others rather than himself. GD can create the experience of his songs but he did not want to write songs based on his experience. The inspiration that he seeks sometimes follows by the dead-end of his days. The society had hoped and demand to GD to write newer songs that make him so tired. GD also saw on the comments page at his website.
GD life seemed to be a public concern that there is no limit. GD got tired of his daily lives pretending to be perfect in everyone eyes.
"I want to go out tonight" GD said to Daesung... His manager.
"You should not go out tonight. Not tonight. Let me rest... Okay" Daesung said testily and looked very tired face to what GD wants.
"I'm going out from the back door of this apartment. As always you will pick me up at the back. I am going to dress casual. They will not recognize me likes always" GD direct exchange his clothes and pointed toward the exit in the signal for Daesung to get moving. Daesung has been understood by GD habits that may be said he will be out every night to a different place. Daesung had to driving the car in the direction which is very far from Seoul and fetch GD in a quiet place. GD would have to walk alone and enjoy the freedom of the night without wanting to be bothered by Daesung. Daesung can only follow the dictates of GD because it only this works that could cope the daily lives of Daesung.
Daesung driving the car slowly. GD does not like playing songs in the car, so the silence of the night while driving is not inevitable for Daesung every second midnight.
GD always confines himself to those people around him. Even Daesung who had worked for him for four years also do not recognize his real person as GD.
GD incise the lines so that the people around him not knowing who the actual real GD.
GD do not told Daesung want to go anywhere now but Daesung was know where their destination.
GD looked at his watch... It was midnight and I still torture my manager... But I cannot help it.
GD closed his eyes for a moment...
Daesung was so bored while driving the car in the middle of the night without someone to talking to. Daesung look into the rearview mirror of the car and saw GD that seemed to fall asleep because GD eyes are close....Daesung hand slowly turning the radio channel in the car and hope to 121.29 FM radio broadcasting. He hopes Seungri will cheer him up in the silence of the night.....
Do you feel bored with your life? Do you not own a friend to talk with? Give and take..... Life is not always like that? Would you talk about your life with your friends? I was a radio announcer for today..... V.I ...... Simple Plan song was titled Perfect fairly impressed me with the meaning of this song...... how about you? Do you feel the same way with me? All outlooks on life is different but our goal at the happiness right? Whoever and wherever you are do not feel lonely because V.I will always accompany you this midnight....... Next we will hear the song is very well known..Wonderful Tonight by Eric.C.....
May you enjoy...............
The radio voice filled with the song that he played. The radio sound volume is not loud enough but still can be heard up to the back seat. Daesung hear Seungri chatter of which he is quite reasonable for the speech. Daesung sometimes feel weird because Seungri does not like talking to him likes on the radio. Is it because there is in reading the script for him? But now... Not only Daesung that heard the radio show carefully. GD is still close his eyes and he puts his ear to the more senses to hear the radio announcer voice. Word by word from the radio announcer voice was like hitting the frozen old heart of GD. The radio announcer voice that is so easy to say and ask the audience of the radio...
The radio announcer's voice is unique... I want to listen to him again...
Shortly the song by Eric. C buzzing into GD ears and melts his heart...
GD wanted to record a radio announcer's voice but GD is not possible immediately opened his eyes and joy in front of volatile Daesung... GD pretended to shift from his seat to look at this radio broadcast channel number... GD managed to see the number but Daesung immediately turn off the radio...
Aish... I need his voice more... I want to listen to him more...
I think I fell in love with his voice....... GD muttered to himself and cursing the cowardly Daesung.
Daesung driving the car for five hours without a direction and purpose to go.
Today, GD is not out of the car. Something unusual happen. GD even slept soundly in the back seat......
Since when is GD can sleep soundly inside the car? Daesung only can drive back to the apartment whiles the sun was rising with the sky......
Chapter 2
G Dragon was in his studio recording now.
He is still working on some songs that have not been completed.
It was nearly midnight. He tuned straight to the radio broadcasts and expecting to hear again the voice of radio announcer. Since a few days ago, G Dragon became a devoted fan of the radio show.
Since it is also made G Dragon feels calmer and happier to live his lives.
Seungri voice gives a lot of inspiration for his work.
The change in G dragon is also known by Daesung, The manager of G Dragon.
Daesung does not need to accompany G Dragon until morning to go out until the morning.
These days Daesung also wonder Why G Dragon is not going out and he is still busy in the studio. Daesung still remember Seungri words of the condition TOP radio companies.
Is everything is running smoothly now? Seungri is still airing on broadcast radio with a happy and cheerful voice. This has become the hallmark of Seungri airs on the radio broadcast.
Is Seungri very smart to hide his feelings? Daesung is still sitting outside the studio waiting for G Dragon and he began to hear Seungri radio broadcasts through his hand phone.
Hello everyone. I am V.I your radio host. Ok ... Let's see the request song for tonight and it seems likes there is an incoming call. Let me pick up the phone that awaiting...
"Hi ... I am your host today V.I. What is your nick name?"
"Hi, my nick name is Dlite. I am so lucky get through this phone line. I called so many times before. Finally I can talk to you now"
"Okay. You are the lucky one I guess for tonight that has been trying to call. Do you have a request song for your beloved one or anything to say to your beloved one?"
"Thank you. I want to request a song. The title is Secret by One Republic. I want to say to my old friend.
Please be honest to me and I hope no more Secret between Us"
Seungri was silent for a moment and try to hear more clearly the voice of this man.
This voice seemed familiar, Seungri wants to guess who he really is?
The radio staff of the radio signals to Seungri to go back and continue to talk in the radio shows.
Seungri is swiftly straight back on the air smoothly without mistake.
After that Secret song airs at one am in the silence morning.
The lyrics are beautiful and unique arrangements of songs, but the things people do not know. Seungri hate this song caused Seungri has a lot of secrets. Seungri do not want any exceptions even to TOP and Daesung. Seungri want to reluctant the past of him.
Daesung is smiling after closing his hand phone. Daesung is calling into radio shows and ask for the Secret song that Seungri played. Daesung just want to know more about the current state of Seungri. Seungri always avoid and Daesung is too busy with G Dragon.
Daesung had lack of the time to ask Seungri while Seungri preferring to solve this problem alone.
G Dragon listens to the radio show carefully. He starts imagines through Seungri's face look likes and imagines the handsome face from the voices that he being heard.
Is his nose aquiline? Is his skin clean and white? He thinks the radio announcer is definitely cute.
How can G Dragon do to meet him? G Dragon wants to see Seungri desperately, but how can be the good way to meet him without being awkward?
G Dragon felt it is to hurry if he wants to meet with Seungri suddenly and say I like you.
G Dragon chooses to call the radio show and request songs to make a start.
"Okay. I am your host V.I. What is your nick name? Who is the next caller?"
"Hm ... Hm ... Hi, My nick name is Ji Baby"
"Okay Mr. Ji Baby. What is the song you want to request and for Who?"
"I request the song for someone that I have not met yet ... It's sound silly right?"
"No... Up course not. Sometimes this thing can be happens to everybody. I can guess the song now.
Do you want me to guess the song?"
"Okay. If you guess it right I will be yours ... I mean... I will be your number one fan"
"Alright. The Singer name begins with M alphabet and The Surname begins with B alphabet"
"Really? Are you sure?"
"Jezz ... You are so easy to read. You said the requested song before already, remember?"
The radio staff signals to Seungri for a limited time on the air. Seungri raised his hand to the staff as a sign of understanding his signal.
"Okay Mr. Ji Baby. I got you man... I will play the song for someone that you have not met yet and I hope you will meet that person"
"Ok. I got you boy... I will"
"Let's hear the song request is Have not meet you yet by Michael Bubble"
"Haven't Met You Yet"
I'm not surprised, not everything lasts
I've broken my heart so many times I stopped keeping track
Talk myself in, I talk myself out
I get all worked up then I let myself down
I tried so very hard not to loose it
I came up with a million excuses
I thought, I thought of every possibility
And I know some day that it’ll all turn out
You'll make me work so we can work to work it out
And I promise you kid that I give so much more than I get
I just haven't met you yet
I might have to wait, I’ll never give up
I guess it's half timin and the other half's luck
Wherever you are, whenever it's right
You'll come outta nowhere and into my life
And I know that we can be so amazin
And baby your love is gonna change me
And now I can see every possibility
Somehow I know that it’ll all turn out
You'll make me work so we can work to work it out
And promise you kid I'll give so much more than I get
I just haven't met you yet
They say all’s fair in love and war
But I won’t need to fight it
We'll get it right and we'll be united
And I know that we can be so amazin
And bein in your life is gonna change me
And now I can see every single possibility
And someday I know it'll all turn out
And I'll work to work it out
Promise you kid I’ll give more than I get
Oh you know it'll all turn out
And you'll make me work so we can work to work it out
And promise you kid to give so much more than I get yeah
I just haven't met you yet
I just haven't met you yet
Oh promise you kid to give so much more than I get
I said love love love love love love love
I just haven't met you yet
G Dragon hanged up his phone with a pounding heart. Seungri felt the same.
A different feeling for him as a radio announcer for years.
G dragon stood up from his seat and started singing along with the song that being aired on the radio. I am more in love with this radio announcer...
Daesung knocked G Dragon studio room but he was too busy singing that song.
Daesung is highly regrettable because it did not hear the conversation G Dragon and Seungri on the radio. Daesung was going to the toilet at that time. When he saw G Dragon who was singing and dancing with a very happy mood, Daesung could only shake his head and closed the door.
Daesung sit back on the sofa and set the radio channel on his hand phone.
This song is the same that Daesung hear in the G Dragon studio room.
Is this just coincidence? Daesung was curious but he immediately dismissed that idea because he knew G Dragon is not the type who would listen to the radio show.
"The company can only survive a week from now" TOP inhaling his cigarette after saying to Seungri.
Seungri just keep silent and bowed his head.
He wants to give the best idea but TOP situation not in the good mood.
TOP and Seungri stood enjoying the silence of the morning air...
Are they will be going to survive or just give up?
Seungri felt pretty tired today because he thought the secret of his past that he hate.
On the other hand Seungri was happy with the voice of Mr. Ji Baby...
Why Seungri felt weird today?
Chapter 3
"You come home early today?” Daesung greets Seungri when he opened the door and Seungri was surprised to see Daesung who do not usually came home early.
"There is progress with my work lately" Daesung smiling and pouring soju into his glass.
"Do you drink soju? Today you are very strange for me. You do not usually drink alcohol" Seungri patted Daesung gently while his suspicious eyes look straight to Daesung face.
"I'm celebrating my work life changes. Come sit here with me" Daesung replied with a relaxed tone and smiling at Seungri. Daesung is actually being agitated currently.
He wanted to ask Seungri problem but he just did not know how to broach it to Seungri.
Daesung while waiting Seungri home from work quite boring so Daesung decided to buy soju in a nearby store. Daesung waiting paid off when the door is open...
Seungri refuse to drink soju but Daesung forced him to celebrate the changes in Daesung mentioned earlier. Seungri finally gave in and sat at the table. He does not resist any longer Daesung offer.
He drank soju that Daesung giving to him slowly.
"Is everything going well to you? " Daesung ventured to ask Seungri after a few swallows of soju.
"Aah... While you are celebrating my job will be end after one week" Seungri sighed and sipped his soju quickly as one shot.
"Is there no other way to save the company? " Daesung really wanted to help Seungri because it is related to the TOP Company.
"I do not know" Seungri bowed his head slowly and eventually passed out drunk at the dinner table.
Daesung shook his head. Seungri is not a great drinker.
Only a few small glasses of soju just enough to pass out without knowing where the place to pass out.
Daesung brain trying to think hard to find a way out of Seungri trouble.
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Daesung sent G Dragon home early after his work at studio to the apartment.
Small smile graced G Dragon face on the way home to the apartment.
That night G Dragon sleeps well and dreams ... A dream that he does not want to remember...
"I am a big fan of you. Please sign this paper for me"
A high school student giving a paper to the G Dragon and bow his head.
G Dragon does not respond to him and walked away from the student quickly.
That student pursuit G Dragon and he still say the same sentence to G Dragon.
G Dragon really bothered about this student strange behavior that he hates the most.
"Leave me alone! " G Dragon yelling at the student in the school yard that was crowded by other students. Instantly, all eyes of the other students looked and set at G Dragon and that student.
G Dragon was embarrassed and quickly left the crowd...
G Dragon awoke from his dream...
His heart beat fast and his forehead had a cold sweat.
"Why am I was dreaming this? " The question that he posed to himself.
The incident occurred when G Dragon is still high school.
A student who always follows him around to asking for autographs during school break time.
The student stopped following him after the incident in the school yard when G Dragon shouted in front of other students. Rumor said maltreatment occurs to that student by other students.
G Dragon is the idol in his school. He was known for writing songs for children in primary schools for school performances and became popular in the music world. He is worshiped by students.
But why G Dragon continues to dream about that student?
The reason why G Dragon do not have a good sleep and work continually to avoid this dream is coming back to haunt him. G Dragon walked around his house with worry and fear.
The fears that happened many years ago. That student's face was never observed by G Dragon.
That student indeed stop bothering G Dragon after the incident but ... A few days after the incident reports that student was missing became a hot topic through the city.
As far as G Dragon knows, that student has not been found...
That student's name was Lee Seung Hyun.
G Dragon decided to call Taeyang...
"Hi, I am Taeyang ... I am not home. Please leave a message after the beep sound"
The answering machine answers G Dragon call.
"Hey... It's me, GD. Call me back. Urgent! " G Dragon disconnected the phone calls quickly.
Suddenly the phone rang back and startled G Dragon. He is having a bad feeling.
"Halo" G Dragon haltingly answering the phone.
"It's me. Taeyang..." Taeyang voice answers quietly.
"What does he look like?" G Dragon sat on the floor whiles holding the phone in his hand shivering.
"Who do you mean? Hey... what is it?" Taeyang being confuse with G Dragon question.
"Lee... Seung... Hyun" G Dragon catches his breath after he says the name of that student.
"Do not go anywhere. I will be right up at your house" Taeyang hung up the phone quickly.
G Dragon body was trembling. Is it true that Lee Seung Hyun is really dead or just missing?
That question continues to haunt G Dragon for years.
Taeyang was at G Dragon home now. Taeyang also felt panicked by the name of Lee Seung Hyun.
"What does he look like?" G Dragon sitting at the table, face to face with Taeyang.
"What exactly has happened to you? You never act like this before and you do not even care at all with him when it happened" Taeyang leaned back in his chair.
"Please just answer my question" G Dragon began the serious tone to Taeyang.
"Lee Seung Hyun, quiet, nerdy, like music and orphan" Taeyang answered briefly.
G Dragon listen the obvious answers from Taeyang and started biting his nails.
For the first time G Dragon would like to know Lee Seung Hyun.
"Is this something important that you want to talk with me? You should ask this at that time and show sympathy after what you did to him" Taeyang contain his emotions and he stood up from his seat.
"I dreamed about him" G Dragon pull Taeyang hand.
Feelings of sympathy toward G Dragon made Taeyang back to sit in the chair and clear to see the fear that was never shown by G Dragon to him.
As a friend for ten years, Taeyang was surprised to see G Dragon mental condition now.
"He has not been found until now. Moreover, he is an orphan, they do not really care about his life and death" Taeyang explain to G Dragon the updates.
"At that time you did not care at all to his missing case. Why all a sudden you ask about him to me?" Taeyang was intrigued by G Dragon strange behavior.
"I regret my actions to him. I do not even remember how his look like" G Dragon's eye filled with tears.
Taeyang and G Dragon mutual silence themselves in the dining room because they both have a sense of deep regret to Lee Seung Hyun.
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Flash Back
"Why are you constantly interrupting GD?" Sulli and the gangs approach Seungri when Seungri is on the way to his home.
"How many times have I told you to stay away from GD" Sulli shouted loud at Seungri face.
A bunch of students and schoolgirls persecute Seungri and he is beat up on a deserted alley.
Seungri is unconscious that time... He became the victim of rape by street thugs.
Taeyang watch from a far without being able to do anything else.
Taeyang want to help but he did not have the courage to fight the thugs so he reminds silent.
After they left, Taeyang walk slowly approaching Seungri. Seungri is still unconscious.
"He will not know it" Taeyang muttered to himself and call an ambulance.
Seungri awoke in the hospital few days later and he found a letter at his side desk.
I am sorry I cannot help you from the rape.
Be fast and run from this city. Change your identity as soon as possible and move somewhere else.
Never use the name of Lee Seung Hyun ever again
Seungri crush the paper and began to cry so loudly...
Chapter 4
"I will leave the company before the last day from TOP" Seungri said in a serious tone to Daesung who still sat enjoying his breakfast.
"Are you serious about this?" Daesung stopped eating his food.
"I'm really serious this time" Seungri sighed as he sat on the couch to avoid Daesung eyes.
"Sometimes there are times when we must stop before we have failed miserably. Forced ambition will be too bad to ourselves and those around us. Even though I love this job, I also cannot force TOP Company to maintain well. Anyway, I plan to stop working this morning. So, today is my last day as a radio announcer" The sadness and disappointment clearly written on Seungri face after he explains to Daesung.
"I love your radio show. I will miss your radio show..." Daesung is being honest and sincere to Seungri. Daesung will definitely miss Seungri voice that accompanied him when he is boring to accompany G Dragon. Seungri was touched by Daesung words.
Seungri actually has its own reasons why he suddenly took this decision.
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Daesung was not eager to work today.
He sent a SMS to G Dragon to take leave for a few days.
Could G Dragon give Daesung permission to take a break for a vacation?
Daesung is anxiously awaiting a reply from G Dragon for a few minutes.
"Why do you suddenly want a holiday?" G Dragon shout echoing in Daesung ear on the phone.
"I have a very urgent thing" Daesung replied haltingly.
"What is it a matter of urgency so that you will forget your job?" G Dragon urged to have an answer truthfully from Daesung while Daesung want to keep this thing from G Dragon.
"I.... I.... How could I tell all to you right now? I just want a holiday "Daesung ruffled his hair desperately.
"I have a lot of time listening to your story. Now, you come to my place and explain it to me" G-Dragon end the phone and Daesung cannot say no to his boss. Daesung took his jacket and walked out of his room. Seungri left his room door open. Seungri is not usually leave the door open. Seungri bedroom window wide open as well. What Seungri did last night Daesung thought.
When Daesung wants to close the window, Daesung find Seungri clothes design sketch book very interesting took his attention. Daesung take it by force because it was sandwiched between Seungri wardrobes. When he managed to pick up the book, there is a paper that had fallen from the book into under the bed. Daesung bend down and reach the paper that slip from the book. Daesung seemed not to believe when looking at a piece of paper in his hand.
The piece of paper is containing the news of G Dragon who received the award several years ago.
"Is Seungri also G Dragon fan? Why he never said this to me? I can ask for a signature of G Dragon because I was his manager" Daesung smiling satisfied and Daesung felt he could help Seungri this time.
Daesung has arrived at the apartment G Dragon and expect brilliant ideas will become succeed.
G Dragon sitting on the couch and lifted his legs turn to speak.
"I want you to find someone for me" G-Dragon's voice was heavy seriously to Daesung.
G Dragon was in desperate need a help from him so Daesung took advantage of this weakness of G Dragon to deal with his ideas.
"I want you to help someone" With confidence Daesung told G Dragon without fear.
"Is this some kind of business negotiation?" G Dragon raised his eyebrows because he did not think Daesung dare refuse his orders.
"You may regard this as a business negotiation" Daesung unequivocally express its wishes. Daesung feels he will win this negotiation. G Dragon to think hard as to find Lee Seung Hyun is not an easy thing for him without Daesung help. G Dragon began to think hard trough his brain and he does not have much choice to choose.
"What should I do then?" G Dragon gave up after a few minutes of thinking hard.
Daesung smiled with satisfaction as he knew G Dragon cannot reject these negotiations easily.
Daesung walked over to the couch and sat down not far from G Dragon.
"You only need to attend a midnight radio show" Daesung look at G Dragon with great expectations for agree to his wishes.
"What? Why do I have to be present in the middle of the night radio show?" G Dragon grinned sarcastically to Daesung. Damn it... He hates that.
"Do you still want to find him?" Daesung is back to his negotiating strategy.
G Dragon stopping his cynical smile and began to think back to Daesung offer earlier.
"I do not like the radio show" G Dragon said sharply contrasts with the opposite fact that G Dragon done in the past few days.
"I also do not like to help you to find someone" Daesung did not want to step back and he wants to convince G Dragon to accept his offer. G-Dragon and Daesung eyes meet...
The battle to win the desire of each person closed with a handshake on both sides. G Dragon has not provided Daesung the detailed information about Lee Seung Hyun, the person he wants to find out.
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Seungri talked to TOP today about his dismissal.
TOP only can accepts Seungri decision because during Seungri has been very helpful for TOP through dark days together. TOP shook hands and embraced Seungri as a sign of friendship between them but TOP and Daesung had a surprise gift for Seungri resign day.
TOP has received Daesung call about the presence of G Dragon tonight on Seungri radio show. Daesung explained that he only wanted to help Seungri to come back excited and did not give up before it all ends of the week. TOP agree to Daesung idea and they agreed to keep this from Seungri. All the radio staff is aware of the presence of G Dragon tonight except Seungri. The radio scripts show for Seungri also change according to the presence of their honored guest, G Dragon.
On the other hand, G-Dragon has a request to Daesung before he agrees to attend the midnight radio show...
1. He did not want the question and answered by a radio announcer show.
2. He will not be limited by a radio script writer.
3. He has a special time with a radio announcer after the event is over.
Daesung did not have the option to choose besides he approve the request from G Dragon.
Seungri was getting ready to air on the radio show. Seungri was reading the last script for him before he on air. Seungri felt he is not ready to resign his job made him a little upset on the situation. He will miss this job. According to Seungri turmoil now is not worth to compare to his turmoil of the past.
"No one will knows my past. I've changed my name and date of my birth. They will not find me" Seungri repeated these words several times to make him calm. Seungri came into the room and sat down with a script that is still in his hand. In a matter of count from the radio staff 5, 4, 3, 2, 1...
"Hello everybody, I am V.I your radio host today. What is the state of radio listeners from FM 121.29? I hope all in good health and happy. I am so sorry to announce this is my last day as a radio announcer in this FM. Forgive me... To treat this sadness I dedicate Beautiful Goodbye song by Maroon 5... I hope you will enjoy this song as the present from me. Let’s hear the song..."
"Beautiful Goodbye"
I count the Airways I let you down
All my fingers and toes but I'm running out
Clever words cannot help me now
I grip tight but you're slipping out
And I remember your eyes were so bright
When I first met you, so in love that night
And now I'm kissing your tears goodnight
And I cannot take it, you're perfect even when you cry
Beautiful goodbye (bye-bye, bye-bye)
It's dripping from your eyes (bye-bye, bye-bye)
Your beautiful goodbye (bye-bye, bye-bye)
It's dripping from your eyes (bye-bye, bye-bye)
Oh yeah
When did the rain become a storm?
When did the clouds begin to form?
Yeah, we got knocked off course by a natural force
And we'll, we'll be swimming when it's gone
And I remember your eyes were so bright
When I first met you, so in love that night
And now I'm kissing your tears goodnight
And I cannot take it, you're perfect even when you cry
Beautiful goodbye (bye-bye, bye-bye)
It's dripping from your eyes (bye-bye, bye-bye)
Your beautiful goodbye (bye-bye, bye-bye)
It's dripping from your eyes (bye-bye, bye-bye)
Oh yeah
All the pain you try to hide
Shows through your mascara lines
As They stream down from your eyes
And let them go, let them fly
Holding back will not turn back time
Believe me, I've tried
Your eyes were so bright
And I remember your eyes were so bright
And I remember your eyes were so bright
When I first met you, how in love we were That Night?
And now I'm kissing your tears goodnight
And I cannot take it, you're perfect even when you cry
Beautiful goodbye (bye-bye, bye-bye)
It's dripping from your eyes (bye-bye, bye-bye)
Your beautiful goodbye (bye-bye, bye-bye)
It's dripping from your eyes (bye-bye, bye-bye)
Yeah
Beau ... Oh, oh yeah
Hey, oh
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Seungri is back on air with the radio signals from the staff. Seungri was on the air and explain what is written in on the script. On the other side G-Dragon and Daesung came late that night and the radio staff immediately brought G Dragon into the room of the radio recording show...
Seungri was surprised to see G Dragon and stopped talking for a while... He is really shock. This is not a pleasant surprise but misery for Seungri resigning night.
G Dragon sat neatly on the front chair and wears the headphones easily. G Dragon's face smiled broadly at Seungri because his dream becoming trues to meet with the owner of intoxicating voice. G Dragon never thought the radio show he will attend is Seungri radio show. He is so excited and he thought he wills to kill two birds with one stone by the same time. Seungri contain his emotions as strong as possible. He felt humiliated by G Dragon presence at his last show... He froze...
Seungri aware of the panic he made... He re-read the script immediately with a little stutter of his voice.
"Today we have loyal fans that attend to our radio show. Mr. Ji Baby... How do you do? Please introduce yourself" Seungri enthusiastic voice disappears that night. He must to follow the script.
"Hi everybody. I am Ji Baby! Glad to be here" G Dragon does not take his eyes of Seungri face.
"Why Mr. Baby Ji is present today in this event? Are you having something to request?" Seungri frightened by this situation. He did not dare to see G Dragon eyes. He was afraid to being recognized by G Dragon as Lee Seung Hyun but he keeps professional at his job.
"Do you really want to know? I am request for help" G Dragon took over the show as a radio announcer as he pleased to be.
"I want to find someone. Someone... That I do not know well. I even do not remember how he looks like. But his name is Lee Seung Hyun. An orphan and he have been missing for a long time. I just wanted to know his whereabouts and I want to ask forgiveness from him. For those who know the whereabouts him please call 8888 and I will be grateful for that... I..." G Dragon stopped talking because Seungri suddenly stand up from his seat and his fist hit the table hard. Pang... The radio show is still on the air...
"You do not deserve to look for him..." Seungri yelled at G Dragon and the radio show is still on the air as he walks out of the room recording leaving G Dragon and the others wondering why he acts like that.
"You do not deserve to find me... I hate you. Because of you my life became misery" Seungri tears welled in chaos as he ran from the radio show at that freezing midnight air. “I am dead now”
Author : spyce10
Pairing : Gri and Big Bang
Genre : Fluff and Angst
A/N : Bad grammar so spare me.... Happy reading guys
Foreword
Seungri is a radio announcer at unfamous radio company.
He is doing this job because he really likes to talk and by the way he is freelance worker at that company.
He is doing this job with all his heart and effort, he hope and still wishing somebody will listens to him after lack of responder.
Every night at 121.29 FM radio channel with Seungri as the radio announcer, he is working on the radio program with his truly confident mantra and the topic that always been given to him without hesitation.
Four thumbs including the feet finger that will be easy to describe on how Seungri hard working as a radio announcer every night.
The task is easy for him to host on the segment of the radio program for years but one day everything going wrong and not right.
Less perfect skill evens worse type of talks suddenly appears in his life and become nightmares for entire life.
The talk’s show that he likes the most changed into disaster life likes what did you do last summer movie?
He is being numb and blind for the whole time since he never expected that little old secret will be reveal in the radio that he host.
With the entire listener who tuned on the radio channel that he host that night and hear the fact what actually happened with Seungri life before back those years..... The dark side of Seungri.......
He refused to remember and rejecting his brain to catch up on the flying thought of secret memories back into those years........
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Jiyong is a loner but he is really smart.
He tried to push himself at the limit that no other can probably do.
Fashionista, Brilliant, Smart, and Rich of Passion are the Label that sticks after his name.
Always want to be perfect label name in people eyes. He tried so hard to make people believe that he can almost do everything but the more he tried to become perfect in people eyes, the more he became exhausted by the fact of reality.
It's like two personalities in his life. The fake G Dragon and the real Kwon Jiyong.
During day light he became the perfectionist G Dragon..... During the night he became Kwon Jiyong the simply loner guy that you can meet at the street.
Nobody really knows his real personality for years or might be they just do not care until one day......
Someone..... Someone..... Stranger that changes his life all sudden and he has to make U-turn from his boring life.
Even he just only can hear the voice from that person. Surprising that His life being charger by the power of that voice.....
The voice Dig every gap in his heart that he refuse to admit for long time. Revealing the real Kwon Jiyong and burry the fake G Dragon for the first time in his story life.
The only thing is he never expecting that the reality vs. dream can be so cruel and sad for Jiyong the loner handsome guy.
He always had been hurt and sad before but then..... Every time he listens to the voice at the radio channel can made him forgot of all the sorrow that suffocates him.
Happiness and admiration on the voice became Jiyong daily doses of medication that he indeed need to take every day.
Addiction by the voice keep him survive from all those bad and good years....... Everybody must have a secret that does not like to admit.
Less than perfect Kwon Jiyong also cannot escape from the secret that hunts him down. The little dirty old secret.......
The secret that he swears to himself to keep it until he will dead......
Chapter 1
"Hello everyone.....May all of you have a good day. I am V.I the radio host for you tonight. Are you feeling happy to hear me now? Ok... Let's begin the segment for tonight. Are you ready? But before we start the segment, let me play your favorite song for tonight. How do I know your favorite song? You can call or send SMS to 18888 and I will definitely play your song but do not be sad if I cannot play your favorite song because tomorrow night I will play your favorite song that I promise. So let's hear the first request favorite song from ID 1503.... Perfect from Simple Plan. May you enjoy your beautiful night"
Every midnight radio broadcast will be on live with Seungri as a side job as a radio announcer with the nickname he had V.I.
For several years this work through Seungri is a great pleasure for him.
This is a job that is not boring for Seungri because he was very happy to talk in the air.
Seungri holds the document in his hand and wearing his glasses to more clearly see the writing on that paper. Advertising now playing on the radio is almost completed and Seungri has prepared the materials segment to be in the conversation by a radio script.
Seungri put the headphones on his ears and he gets ready for broadcast again in the radio...
The radio companies are not so well known by people. The radio listeners are also not a lot but there is a small loyal following of listeners who still listen the midnight radio show by Seungri the host.
The paid for Seungri work not too big but Seungri very satisfied with this work may even be said Seungri wants to do this job forever.
After ending his air work that morning, Seungri be told by TOP the radio company's corporate director of the radio said that the company will soon be closed because of the crisis on the verge of bankruptcy.
Seungri felt very sad and trying to convince TOP to save the radio until the end of this month.
He wanted to help these radio companies can survive like in previous years but this time not the same problems that TOP faced. Seungri and TOP were friends since they were in college. Another reason why Seungri work for this company because he wanted to help TOP in return for helping Seungri in the college back those years. Seungri took a deep breath on the way home and still figuring out how to save TOP Radio Company. Seungri really hope that, there will be ways to save on the radio ratings company.
Seungri cannot sleep as usual. How could he sleep in this situation? Seungri get out of bed and walked into the kitchen.
"You still awake?" Daesung walked through the door and wave his hand to Seungri.
"Ah .... I was a lot of thought. Would you like a cup of tea? "Seungri said while holding his neck as he warmed the pot of water on the stove.
"Thank you. I am very tired today. I think you should try to work until the morning to accompany a musician.... I was very damn tired" Daesung ruffled his hair as he sat in the dining room chairs. Seungri just smiled because this was not the first time Daesung say this. Seungri may have hundreds or thousands of time listening to this from Daesung mouth.
Seungri and Daesung are roommates since three years ago.
They accidentally met at a fashion show held at one of the famous hotel in Seoul.
Seungri is the designer clothe that is still amateurs. He stills has to learn a lot from the seniors there. Seungri aspirations are divulging the time to make the exhibition design clothes by Seungri own label.
Over the past three years Seungri has been drawing a lot of design clothes work but Seungri is still not confident enough with his design of work.
"What make you cannot sleep today?" Daesung began blowing his glass that stills hot.
"I'm likely had to stop my work on the radio" Seungri sitting opposite Daesung.
"What? Why? You love the job" Daesung looked straight to Seungri face as he puts his hot tea from his hand. "Arrgh.... TOP said the radio company almost went bankrupt currently. I also do not want to stop the job now but I am just saying there is the possibility" Seungri flexing his shoulders and began to rub his forehead with his fingers.
"What? Bankrupt? TOP? OMG" Daesung holding his mouth with his fingers suddenly....
Seungri was surprised to see Daesung that look very surprised or may say a bit over reacting. Seungri was in vain told Daesung because he knows Daesung cannot help him much. Seungri stood up and began walking toward his bedroom as he patted Daesung shoulder, he is still holding his mouth with his fingers.
Seungri walked around the city during the day. Today he still does not sleep and was still anxious to the issue that comes up with TOP Company.
Will TOP delayed until the end of this month? Seungri really doubt this case because TOP was looking very stressed the last time he sees him this morning.
Today Seungri also cannot draw anything because almost his entire mind focused with the problem of TOP. His dark circles in the eyes became more and Seungri looks so tired and he finally decided to return home for sleep. For a moment he wanted to forget about this problem immediately...
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GD is very busy with his work as a composer and songwriter. Quite a lot of famous songs are already composed by him and became a hit on the all chart. As a composer and songwriter GD requires inspiration and idea for the songs that he composed. While GD wrote the song based on the experience of others rather than himself. GD can create the experience of his songs but he did not want to write songs based on his experience. The inspiration that he seeks sometimes follows by the dead-end of his days. The society had hoped and demand to GD to write newer songs that make him so tired. GD also saw on the comments page at his website.
GD life seemed to be a public concern that there is no limit. GD got tired of his daily lives pretending to be perfect in everyone eyes.
"I want to go out tonight" GD said to Daesung... His manager.
"You should not go out tonight. Not tonight. Let me rest... Okay" Daesung said testily and looked very tired face to what GD wants.
"I'm going out from the back door of this apartment. As always you will pick me up at the back. I am going to dress casual. They will not recognize me likes always" GD direct exchange his clothes and pointed toward the exit in the signal for Daesung to get moving. Daesung has been understood by GD habits that may be said he will be out every night to a different place. Daesung had to driving the car in the direction which is very far from Seoul and fetch GD in a quiet place. GD would have to walk alone and enjoy the freedom of the night without wanting to be bothered by Daesung. Daesung can only follow the dictates of GD because it only this works that could cope the daily lives of Daesung.
Daesung driving the car slowly. GD does not like playing songs in the car, so the silence of the night while driving is not inevitable for Daesung every second midnight.
GD always confines himself to those people around him. Even Daesung who had worked for him for four years also do not recognize his real person as GD.
GD incise the lines so that the people around him not knowing who the actual real GD.
GD do not told Daesung want to go anywhere now but Daesung was know where their destination.
GD looked at his watch... It was midnight and I still torture my manager... But I cannot help it.
GD closed his eyes for a moment...
Daesung was so bored while driving the car in the middle of the night without someone to talking to. Daesung look into the rearview mirror of the car and saw GD that seemed to fall asleep because GD eyes are close....Daesung hand slowly turning the radio channel in the car and hope to 121.29 FM radio broadcasting. He hopes Seungri will cheer him up in the silence of the night.....
Do you feel bored with your life? Do you not own a friend to talk with? Give and take..... Life is not always like that? Would you talk about your life with your friends? I was a radio announcer for today..... V.I ...... Simple Plan song was titled Perfect fairly impressed me with the meaning of this song...... how about you? Do you feel the same way with me? All outlooks on life is different but our goal at the happiness right? Whoever and wherever you are do not feel lonely because V.I will always accompany you this midnight....... Next we will hear the song is very well known..Wonderful Tonight by Eric.C.....
May you enjoy...............
The radio voice filled with the song that he played. The radio sound volume is not loud enough but still can be heard up to the back seat. Daesung hear Seungri chatter of which he is quite reasonable for the speech. Daesung sometimes feel weird because Seungri does not like talking to him likes on the radio. Is it because there is in reading the script for him? But now... Not only Daesung that heard the radio show carefully. GD is still close his eyes and he puts his ear to the more senses to hear the radio announcer voice. Word by word from the radio announcer voice was like hitting the frozen old heart of GD. The radio announcer voice that is so easy to say and ask the audience of the radio...
The radio announcer's voice is unique... I want to listen to him again...
Shortly the song by Eric. C buzzing into GD ears and melts his heart...
GD wanted to record a radio announcer's voice but GD is not possible immediately opened his eyes and joy in front of volatile Daesung... GD pretended to shift from his seat to look at this radio broadcast channel number... GD managed to see the number but Daesung immediately turn off the radio...
Aish... I need his voice more... I want to listen to him more...
I think I fell in love with his voice....... GD muttered to himself and cursing the cowardly Daesung.
Daesung driving the car for five hours without a direction and purpose to go.
Today, GD is not out of the car. Something unusual happen. GD even slept soundly in the back seat......
Since when is GD can sleep soundly inside the car? Daesung only can drive back to the apartment whiles the sun was rising with the sky......
Chapter 2
G Dragon was in his studio recording now.
He is still working on some songs that have not been completed.
It was nearly midnight. He tuned straight to the radio broadcasts and expecting to hear again the voice of radio announcer. Since a few days ago, G Dragon became a devoted fan of the radio show.
Since it is also made G Dragon feels calmer and happier to live his lives.
Seungri voice gives a lot of inspiration for his work.
The change in G dragon is also known by Daesung, The manager of G Dragon.
Daesung does not need to accompany G Dragon until morning to go out until the morning.
These days Daesung also wonder Why G Dragon is not going out and he is still busy in the studio. Daesung still remember Seungri words of the condition TOP radio companies.
Is everything is running smoothly now? Seungri is still airing on broadcast radio with a happy and cheerful voice. This has become the hallmark of Seungri airs on the radio broadcast.
Is Seungri very smart to hide his feelings? Daesung is still sitting outside the studio waiting for G Dragon and he began to hear Seungri radio broadcasts through his hand phone.
Hello everyone. I am V.I your radio host. Ok ... Let's see the request song for tonight and it seems likes there is an incoming call. Let me pick up the phone that awaiting...
"Hi ... I am your host today V.I. What is your nick name?"
"Hi, my nick name is Dlite. I am so lucky get through this phone line. I called so many times before. Finally I can talk to you now"
"Okay. You are the lucky one I guess for tonight that has been trying to call. Do you have a request song for your beloved one or anything to say to your beloved one?"
"Thank you. I want to request a song. The title is Secret by One Republic. I want to say to my old friend.
Please be honest to me and I hope no more Secret between Us"
Seungri was silent for a moment and try to hear more clearly the voice of this man.
This voice seemed familiar, Seungri wants to guess who he really is?
The radio staff of the radio signals to Seungri to go back and continue to talk in the radio shows.
Seungri is swiftly straight back on the air smoothly without mistake.
After that Secret song airs at one am in the silence morning.
The lyrics are beautiful and unique arrangements of songs, but the things people do not know. Seungri hate this song caused Seungri has a lot of secrets. Seungri do not want any exceptions even to TOP and Daesung. Seungri want to reluctant the past of him.
Daesung is smiling after closing his hand phone. Daesung is calling into radio shows and ask for the Secret song that Seungri played. Daesung just want to know more about the current state of Seungri. Seungri always avoid and Daesung is too busy with G Dragon.
Daesung had lack of the time to ask Seungri while Seungri preferring to solve this problem alone.
G Dragon listens to the radio show carefully. He starts imagines through Seungri's face look likes and imagines the handsome face from the voices that he being heard.
Is his nose aquiline? Is his skin clean and white? He thinks the radio announcer is definitely cute.
How can G Dragon do to meet him? G Dragon wants to see Seungri desperately, but how can be the good way to meet him without being awkward?
G Dragon felt it is to hurry if he wants to meet with Seungri suddenly and say I like you.
G Dragon chooses to call the radio show and request songs to make a start.
"Okay. I am your host V.I. What is your nick name? Who is the next caller?"
"Hm ... Hm ... Hi, My nick name is Ji Baby"
"Okay Mr. Ji Baby. What is the song you want to request and for Who?"
"I request the song for someone that I have not met yet ... It's sound silly right?"
"No... Up course not. Sometimes this thing can be happens to everybody. I can guess the song now.
Do you want me to guess the song?"
"Okay. If you guess it right I will be yours ... I mean... I will be your number one fan"
"Alright. The Singer name begins with M alphabet and The Surname begins with B alphabet"
"Really? Are you sure?"
"Jezz ... You are so easy to read. You said the requested song before already, remember?"
The radio staff signals to Seungri for a limited time on the air. Seungri raised his hand to the staff as a sign of understanding his signal.
"Okay Mr. Ji Baby. I got you man... I will play the song for someone that you have not met yet and I hope you will meet that person"
"Ok. I got you boy... I will"
"Let's hear the song request is Have not meet you yet by Michael Bubble"
"Haven't Met You Yet"
I'm not surprised, not everything lasts
I've broken my heart so many times I stopped keeping track
Talk myself in, I talk myself out
I get all worked up then I let myself down
I tried so very hard not to loose it
I came up with a million excuses
I thought, I thought of every possibility
And I know some day that it’ll all turn out
You'll make me work so we can work to work it out
And I promise you kid that I give so much more than I get
I just haven't met you yet
I might have to wait, I’ll never give up
I guess it's half timin and the other half's luck
Wherever you are, whenever it's right
You'll come outta nowhere and into my life
And I know that we can be so amazin
And baby your love is gonna change me
And now I can see every possibility
Somehow I know that it’ll all turn out
You'll make me work so we can work to work it out
And promise you kid I'll give so much more than I get
I just haven't met you yet
They say all’s fair in love and war
But I won’t need to fight it
We'll get it right and we'll be united
And I know that we can be so amazin
And bein in your life is gonna change me
And now I can see every single possibility
And someday I know it'll all turn out
And I'll work to work it out
Promise you kid I’ll give more than I get
Oh you know it'll all turn out
And you'll make me work so we can work to work it out
And promise you kid to give so much more than I get yeah
I just haven't met you yet
I just haven't met you yet
Oh promise you kid to give so much more than I get
I said love love love love love love love
I just haven't met you yet
G Dragon hanged up his phone with a pounding heart. Seungri felt the same.
A different feeling for him as a radio announcer for years.
G dragon stood up from his seat and started singing along with the song that being aired on the radio. I am more in love with this radio announcer...
Daesung knocked G Dragon studio room but he was too busy singing that song.
Daesung is highly regrettable because it did not hear the conversation G Dragon and Seungri on the radio. Daesung was going to the toilet at that time. When he saw G Dragon who was singing and dancing with a very happy mood, Daesung could only shake his head and closed the door.
Daesung sit back on the sofa and set the radio channel on his hand phone.
This song is the same that Daesung hear in the G Dragon studio room.
Is this just coincidence? Daesung was curious but he immediately dismissed that idea because he knew G Dragon is not the type who would listen to the radio show.
"The company can only survive a week from now" TOP inhaling his cigarette after saying to Seungri.
Seungri just keep silent and bowed his head.
He wants to give the best idea but TOP situation not in the good mood.
TOP and Seungri stood enjoying the silence of the morning air...
Are they will be going to survive or just give up?
Seungri felt pretty tired today because he thought the secret of his past that he hate.
On the other hand Seungri was happy with the voice of Mr. Ji Baby...
Why Seungri felt weird today?
Chapter 3
"You come home early today?” Daesung greets Seungri when he opened the door and Seungri was surprised to see Daesung who do not usually came home early.
"There is progress with my work lately" Daesung smiling and pouring soju into his glass.
"Do you drink soju? Today you are very strange for me. You do not usually drink alcohol" Seungri patted Daesung gently while his suspicious eyes look straight to Daesung face.
"I'm celebrating my work life changes. Come sit here with me" Daesung replied with a relaxed tone and smiling at Seungri. Daesung is actually being agitated currently.
He wanted to ask Seungri problem but he just did not know how to broach it to Seungri.
Daesung while waiting Seungri home from work quite boring so Daesung decided to buy soju in a nearby store. Daesung waiting paid off when the door is open...
Seungri refuse to drink soju but Daesung forced him to celebrate the changes in Daesung mentioned earlier. Seungri finally gave in and sat at the table. He does not resist any longer Daesung offer.
He drank soju that Daesung giving to him slowly.
"Is everything going well to you? " Daesung ventured to ask Seungri after a few swallows of soju.
"Aah... While you are celebrating my job will be end after one week" Seungri sighed and sipped his soju quickly as one shot.
"Is there no other way to save the company? " Daesung really wanted to help Seungri because it is related to the TOP Company.
"I do not know" Seungri bowed his head slowly and eventually passed out drunk at the dinner table.
Daesung shook his head. Seungri is not a great drinker.
Only a few small glasses of soju just enough to pass out without knowing where the place to pass out.
Daesung brain trying to think hard to find a way out of Seungri trouble.
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Daesung sent G Dragon home early after his work at studio to the apartment.
Small smile graced G Dragon face on the way home to the apartment.
That night G Dragon sleeps well and dreams ... A dream that he does not want to remember...
"I am a big fan of you. Please sign this paper for me"
A high school student giving a paper to the G Dragon and bow his head.
G Dragon does not respond to him and walked away from the student quickly.
That student pursuit G Dragon and he still say the same sentence to G Dragon.
G Dragon really bothered about this student strange behavior that he hates the most.
"Leave me alone! " G Dragon yelling at the student in the school yard that was crowded by other students. Instantly, all eyes of the other students looked and set at G Dragon and that student.
G Dragon was embarrassed and quickly left the crowd...
G Dragon awoke from his dream...
His heart beat fast and his forehead had a cold sweat.
"Why am I was dreaming this? " The question that he posed to himself.
The incident occurred when G Dragon is still high school.
A student who always follows him around to asking for autographs during school break time.
The student stopped following him after the incident in the school yard when G Dragon shouted in front of other students. Rumor said maltreatment occurs to that student by other students.
G Dragon is the idol in his school. He was known for writing songs for children in primary schools for school performances and became popular in the music world. He is worshiped by students.
But why G Dragon continues to dream about that student?
The reason why G Dragon do not have a good sleep and work continually to avoid this dream is coming back to haunt him. G Dragon walked around his house with worry and fear.
The fears that happened many years ago. That student's face was never observed by G Dragon.
That student indeed stop bothering G Dragon after the incident but ... A few days after the incident reports that student was missing became a hot topic through the city.
As far as G Dragon knows, that student has not been found...
That student's name was Lee Seung Hyun.
G Dragon decided to call Taeyang...
"Hi, I am Taeyang ... I am not home. Please leave a message after the beep sound"
The answering machine answers G Dragon call.
"Hey... It's me, GD. Call me back. Urgent! " G Dragon disconnected the phone calls quickly.
Suddenly the phone rang back and startled G Dragon. He is having a bad feeling.
"Halo" G Dragon haltingly answering the phone.
"It's me. Taeyang..." Taeyang voice answers quietly.
"What does he look like?" G Dragon sat on the floor whiles holding the phone in his hand shivering.
"Who do you mean? Hey... what is it?" Taeyang being confuse with G Dragon question.
"Lee... Seung... Hyun" G Dragon catches his breath after he says the name of that student.
"Do not go anywhere. I will be right up at your house" Taeyang hung up the phone quickly.
G Dragon body was trembling. Is it true that Lee Seung Hyun is really dead or just missing?
That question continues to haunt G Dragon for years.
Taeyang was at G Dragon home now. Taeyang also felt panicked by the name of Lee Seung Hyun.
"What does he look like?" G Dragon sitting at the table, face to face with Taeyang.
"What exactly has happened to you? You never act like this before and you do not even care at all with him when it happened" Taeyang leaned back in his chair.
"Please just answer my question" G Dragon began the serious tone to Taeyang.
"Lee Seung Hyun, quiet, nerdy, like music and orphan" Taeyang answered briefly.
G Dragon listen the obvious answers from Taeyang and started biting his nails.
For the first time G Dragon would like to know Lee Seung Hyun.
"Is this something important that you want to talk with me? You should ask this at that time and show sympathy after what you did to him" Taeyang contain his emotions and he stood up from his seat.
"I dreamed about him" G Dragon pull Taeyang hand.
Feelings of sympathy toward G Dragon made Taeyang back to sit in the chair and clear to see the fear that was never shown by G Dragon to him.
As a friend for ten years, Taeyang was surprised to see G Dragon mental condition now.
"He has not been found until now. Moreover, he is an orphan, they do not really care about his life and death" Taeyang explain to G Dragon the updates.
"At that time you did not care at all to his missing case. Why all a sudden you ask about him to me?" Taeyang was intrigued by G Dragon strange behavior.
"I regret my actions to him. I do not even remember how his look like" G Dragon's eye filled with tears.
Taeyang and G Dragon mutual silence themselves in the dining room because they both have a sense of deep regret to Lee Seung Hyun.
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Flash Back
"Why are you constantly interrupting GD?" Sulli and the gangs approach Seungri when Seungri is on the way to his home.
"How many times have I told you to stay away from GD" Sulli shouted loud at Seungri face.
A bunch of students and schoolgirls persecute Seungri and he is beat up on a deserted alley.
Seungri is unconscious that time... He became the victim of rape by street thugs.
Taeyang watch from a far without being able to do anything else.
Taeyang want to help but he did not have the courage to fight the thugs so he reminds silent.
After they left, Taeyang walk slowly approaching Seungri. Seungri is still unconscious.
"He will not know it" Taeyang muttered to himself and call an ambulance.
Seungri awoke in the hospital few days later and he found a letter at his side desk.
I am sorry I cannot help you from the rape.
Be fast and run from this city. Change your identity as soon as possible and move somewhere else.
Never use the name of Lee Seung Hyun ever again
Seungri crush the paper and began to cry so loudly...
Chapter 4
"I will leave the company before the last day from TOP" Seungri said in a serious tone to Daesung who still sat enjoying his breakfast.
"Are you serious about this?" Daesung stopped eating his food.
"I'm really serious this time" Seungri sighed as he sat on the couch to avoid Daesung eyes.
"Sometimes there are times when we must stop before we have failed miserably. Forced ambition will be too bad to ourselves and those around us. Even though I love this job, I also cannot force TOP Company to maintain well. Anyway, I plan to stop working this morning. So, today is my last day as a radio announcer" The sadness and disappointment clearly written on Seungri face after he explains to Daesung.
"I love your radio show. I will miss your radio show..." Daesung is being honest and sincere to Seungri. Daesung will definitely miss Seungri voice that accompanied him when he is boring to accompany G Dragon. Seungri was touched by Daesung words.
Seungri actually has its own reasons why he suddenly took this decision.
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Daesung was not eager to work today.
He sent a SMS to G Dragon to take leave for a few days.
Could G Dragon give Daesung permission to take a break for a vacation?
Daesung is anxiously awaiting a reply from G Dragon for a few minutes.
"Why do you suddenly want a holiday?" G Dragon shout echoing in Daesung ear on the phone.
"I have a very urgent thing" Daesung replied haltingly.
"What is it a matter of urgency so that you will forget your job?" G Dragon urged to have an answer truthfully from Daesung while Daesung want to keep this thing from G Dragon.
"I.... I.... How could I tell all to you right now? I just want a holiday "Daesung ruffled his hair desperately.
"I have a lot of time listening to your story. Now, you come to my place and explain it to me" G-Dragon end the phone and Daesung cannot say no to his boss. Daesung took his jacket and walked out of his room. Seungri left his room door open. Seungri is not usually leave the door open. Seungri bedroom window wide open as well. What Seungri did last night Daesung thought.
When Daesung wants to close the window, Daesung find Seungri clothes design sketch book very interesting took his attention. Daesung take it by force because it was sandwiched between Seungri wardrobes. When he managed to pick up the book, there is a paper that had fallen from the book into under the bed. Daesung bend down and reach the paper that slip from the book. Daesung seemed not to believe when looking at a piece of paper in his hand.
The piece of paper is containing the news of G Dragon who received the award several years ago.
"Is Seungri also G Dragon fan? Why he never said this to me? I can ask for a signature of G Dragon because I was his manager" Daesung smiling satisfied and Daesung felt he could help Seungri this time.
Daesung has arrived at the apartment G Dragon and expect brilliant ideas will become succeed.
G Dragon sitting on the couch and lifted his legs turn to speak.
"I want you to find someone for me" G-Dragon's voice was heavy seriously to Daesung.
G Dragon was in desperate need a help from him so Daesung took advantage of this weakness of G Dragon to deal with his ideas.
"I want you to help someone" With confidence Daesung told G Dragon without fear.
"Is this some kind of business negotiation?" G Dragon raised his eyebrows because he did not think Daesung dare refuse his orders.
"You may regard this as a business negotiation" Daesung unequivocally express its wishes. Daesung feels he will win this negotiation. G Dragon to think hard as to find Lee Seung Hyun is not an easy thing for him without Daesung help. G Dragon began to think hard trough his brain and he does not have much choice to choose.
"What should I do then?" G Dragon gave up after a few minutes of thinking hard.
Daesung smiled with satisfaction as he knew G Dragon cannot reject these negotiations easily.
Daesung walked over to the couch and sat down not far from G Dragon.
"You only need to attend a midnight radio show" Daesung look at G Dragon with great expectations for agree to his wishes.
"What? Why do I have to be present in the middle of the night radio show?" G Dragon grinned sarcastically to Daesung. Damn it... He hates that.
"Do you still want to find him?" Daesung is back to his negotiating strategy.
G Dragon stopping his cynical smile and began to think back to Daesung offer earlier.
"I do not like the radio show" G Dragon said sharply contrasts with the opposite fact that G Dragon done in the past few days.
"I also do not like to help you to find someone" Daesung did not want to step back and he wants to convince G Dragon to accept his offer. G-Dragon and Daesung eyes meet...
The battle to win the desire of each person closed with a handshake on both sides. G Dragon has not provided Daesung the detailed information about Lee Seung Hyun, the person he wants to find out.
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Seungri talked to TOP today about his dismissal.
TOP only can accepts Seungri decision because during Seungri has been very helpful for TOP through dark days together. TOP shook hands and embraced Seungri as a sign of friendship between them but TOP and Daesung had a surprise gift for Seungri resign day.
TOP has received Daesung call about the presence of G Dragon tonight on Seungri radio show. Daesung explained that he only wanted to help Seungri to come back excited and did not give up before it all ends of the week. TOP agree to Daesung idea and they agreed to keep this from Seungri. All the radio staff is aware of the presence of G Dragon tonight except Seungri. The radio scripts show for Seungri also change according to the presence of their honored guest, G Dragon.
On the other hand, G-Dragon has a request to Daesung before he agrees to attend the midnight radio show...
1. He did not want the question and answered by a radio announcer show.
2. He will not be limited by a radio script writer.
3. He has a special time with a radio announcer after the event is over.
Daesung did not have the option to choose besides he approve the request from G Dragon.
Seungri was getting ready to air on the radio show. Seungri was reading the last script for him before he on air. Seungri felt he is not ready to resign his job made him a little upset on the situation. He will miss this job. According to Seungri turmoil now is not worth to compare to his turmoil of the past.
"No one will knows my past. I've changed my name and date of my birth. They will not find me" Seungri repeated these words several times to make him calm. Seungri came into the room and sat down with a script that is still in his hand. In a matter of count from the radio staff 5, 4, 3, 2, 1...
"Hello everybody, I am V.I your radio host today. What is the state of radio listeners from FM 121.29? I hope all in good health and happy. I am so sorry to announce this is my last day as a radio announcer in this FM. Forgive me... To treat this sadness I dedicate Beautiful Goodbye song by Maroon 5... I hope you will enjoy this song as the present from me. Let’s hear the song..."
"Beautiful Goodbye"
I count the Airways I let you down
All my fingers and toes but I'm running out
Clever words cannot help me now
I grip tight but you're slipping out
And I remember your eyes were so bright
When I first met you, so in love that night
And now I'm kissing your tears goodnight
And I cannot take it, you're perfect even when you cry
Beautiful goodbye (bye-bye, bye-bye)
It's dripping from your eyes (bye-bye, bye-bye)
Your beautiful goodbye (bye-bye, bye-bye)
It's dripping from your eyes (bye-bye, bye-bye)
Oh yeah
When did the rain become a storm?
When did the clouds begin to form?
Yeah, we got knocked off course by a natural force
And we'll, we'll be swimming when it's gone
And I remember your eyes were so bright
When I first met you, so in love that night
And now I'm kissing your tears goodnight
And I cannot take it, you're perfect even when you cry
Beautiful goodbye (bye-bye, bye-bye)
It's dripping from your eyes (bye-bye, bye-bye)
Your beautiful goodbye (bye-bye, bye-bye)
It's dripping from your eyes (bye-bye, bye-bye)
Oh yeah
All the pain you try to hide
Shows through your mascara lines
As They stream down from your eyes
And let them go, let them fly
Holding back will not turn back time
Believe me, I've tried
Your eyes were so bright
And I remember your eyes were so bright
And I remember your eyes were so bright
When I first met you, how in love we were That Night?
And now I'm kissing your tears goodnight
And I cannot take it, you're perfect even when you cry
Beautiful goodbye (bye-bye, bye-bye)
It's dripping from your eyes (bye-bye, bye-bye)
Your beautiful goodbye (bye-bye, bye-bye)
It's dripping from your eyes (bye-bye, bye-bye)
Yeah
Beau ... Oh, oh yeah
Hey, oh
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Seungri is back on air with the radio signals from the staff. Seungri was on the air and explain what is written in on the script. On the other side G-Dragon and Daesung came late that night and the radio staff immediately brought G Dragon into the room of the radio recording show...
Seungri was surprised to see G Dragon and stopped talking for a while... He is really shock. This is not a pleasant surprise but misery for Seungri resigning night.
G Dragon sat neatly on the front chair and wears the headphones easily. G Dragon's face smiled broadly at Seungri because his dream becoming trues to meet with the owner of intoxicating voice. G Dragon never thought the radio show he will attend is Seungri radio show. He is so excited and he thought he wills to kill two birds with one stone by the same time. Seungri contain his emotions as strong as possible. He felt humiliated by G Dragon presence at his last show... He froze...
Seungri aware of the panic he made... He re-read the script immediately with a little stutter of his voice.
"Today we have loyal fans that attend to our radio show. Mr. Ji Baby... How do you do? Please introduce yourself" Seungri enthusiastic voice disappears that night. He must to follow the script.
"Hi everybody. I am Ji Baby! Glad to be here" G Dragon does not take his eyes of Seungri face.
"Why Mr. Baby Ji is present today in this event? Are you having something to request?" Seungri frightened by this situation. He did not dare to see G Dragon eyes. He was afraid to being recognized by G Dragon as Lee Seung Hyun but he keeps professional at his job.
"Do you really want to know? I am request for help" G Dragon took over the show as a radio announcer as he pleased to be.
"I want to find someone. Someone... That I do not know well. I even do not remember how he looks like. But his name is Lee Seung Hyun. An orphan and he have been missing for a long time. I just wanted to know his whereabouts and I want to ask forgiveness from him. For those who know the whereabouts him please call 8888 and I will be grateful for that... I..." G Dragon stopped talking because Seungri suddenly stand up from his seat and his fist hit the table hard. Pang... The radio show is still on the air...
"You do not deserve to look for him..." Seungri yelled at G Dragon and the radio show is still on the air as he walks out of the room recording leaving G Dragon and the others wondering why he acts like that.
"You do not deserve to find me... I hate you. Because of you my life became misery" Seungri tears welled in chaos as he ran from the radio show at that freezing midnight air. “I am dead now”