*GoT tO MuCh On My MiNd*
Yesterday started out great. I mean i got to talk to bk an my classes were ok i guess. Then came swim practice. I mean it started out ok. We hung out in front of Santaluces pool but we couldnt swim there cuz of the hurricane cuz the pool was still messed up. So i was foolin around w/ Mike an Bryant an Stephanie an sum otha ppl. It was fun. Mike lik jumped on my back an i fell down cuz i mean the guy is lik 6'5 lol.
Then after about an hr ppl got to talkin about my mom. That didnt go well at all. I could handle the stuff bout the car wash an stuff but then we got to the orlando trip. Gawd that went downhill fast. See at orlando i was REALLY b*tchy cuz i had ALOT on my mind. I didnt want to tell my friends on the team wat i was so pissed about cuz i knew it would get back to my mom an i didnt want her kno. See there was suppose to b this big fight that weekend btween my guy friends an this otha group of guys. They wanted me to b there bcuz every big fight there has been since b4 i can remember it had ALWAYS been the whole group. Snipes, Rusty, Jack, Roy, Loch, Mark, Danny, me Pip, Bryon...simply everybody. Rusty told me about it and i told him i couldnt b there bcuz i would b in orlando bcuz of hte polo tournament. That didnt go over to well w/ him and hte guys. Rusty started askin me where my loyalites were. I mean he had missed dirt bike races bcuz of fights, jack had canceled dates, an heck Roy had even missed a rodeo weekend jus so he could b at a fight. An i wouldnt turn down polo bcuz of it. So the whole time i was in Orlando i was NOT in a good mood, an i told my friends it was due to anudda reason.
Well at the meet everybody had wanted to go hang out as a team but i didnt. I didnt want to b w/ the team so i said i would stay bhind. well wen Jessica finally talked me into goin to the movies w/ them they called an said they were goin to r Coach's parents springs an shit. So i said forget it. well by the time we all got outta the shower everybody had already gone to the springs an stuff an plus my mom doesnt lik drivin real far in that area. so Jess, Ellen, an Sarah an me all went bowlin instead. I thought they were cool w/ it.
Well at swim practice yesterday sarah started sayin shit bout how we "pressured" her into goin w/ us. I'm sry an mayb it was jus how i was brought up but i was always taught not to let ANYBODY pressure u into ANYTHING. On top of her it felt like everybody was ganging up on me. I cant handle that. I'v been ganged up on(both physically an lik they were doin by jus all talkin against me) too much in the past an i get real defensive i guess. So i told her to "get a backbone". an she took it real personally.
Later on i told her(an everybody) that i was sorry i snapped an she was lik "no. i'm pissed. an i dont hold grudges". I dont see wat she had to b pissed at. i dono i mean the whole thing put me in a real werid place an its been drivin me crazy since. i really hope everything goes ok tomorrow. I lik sarah an i think of her as a friend. I dont want her to b mad but at hte same time i dont think i was wrong in saying wat i said.
Then after about an hr ppl got to talkin about my mom. That didnt go well at all. I could handle the stuff bout the car wash an stuff but then we got to the orlando trip. Gawd that went downhill fast. See at orlando i was REALLY b*tchy cuz i had ALOT on my mind. I didnt want to tell my friends on the team wat i was so pissed about cuz i knew it would get back to my mom an i didnt want her kno. See there was suppose to b this big fight that weekend btween my guy friends an this otha group of guys. They wanted me to b there bcuz every big fight there has been since b4 i can remember it had ALWAYS been the whole group. Snipes, Rusty, Jack, Roy, Loch, Mark, Danny, me Pip, Bryon...simply everybody. Rusty told me about it and i told him i couldnt b there bcuz i would b in orlando bcuz of hte polo tournament. That didnt go over to well w/ him and hte guys. Rusty started askin me where my loyalites were. I mean he had missed dirt bike races bcuz of fights, jack had canceled dates, an heck Roy had even missed a rodeo weekend jus so he could b at a fight. An i wouldnt turn down polo bcuz of it. So the whole time i was in Orlando i was NOT in a good mood, an i told my friends it was due to anudda reason.
Well at the meet everybody had wanted to go hang out as a team but i didnt. I didnt want to b w/ the team so i said i would stay bhind. well wen Jessica finally talked me into goin to the movies w/ them they called an said they were goin to r Coach's parents springs an shit. So i said forget it. well by the time we all got outta the shower everybody had already gone to the springs an stuff an plus my mom doesnt lik drivin real far in that area. so Jess, Ellen, an Sarah an me all went bowlin instead. I thought they were cool w/ it.
Well at swim practice yesterday sarah started sayin shit bout how we "pressured" her into goin w/ us. I'm sry an mayb it was jus how i was brought up but i was always taught not to let ANYBODY pressure u into ANYTHING. On top of her it felt like everybody was ganging up on me. I cant handle that. I'v been ganged up on(both physically an lik they were doin by jus all talkin against me) too much in the past an i get real defensive i guess. So i told her to "get a backbone". an she took it real personally.
Later on i told her(an everybody) that i was sorry i snapped an she was lik "no. i'm pissed. an i dont hold grudges". I dont see wat she had to b pissed at. i dono i mean the whole thing put me in a real werid place an its been drivin me crazy since. i really hope everything goes ok tomorrow. I lik sarah an i think of her as a friend. I dont want her to b mad but at hte same time i dont think i was wrong in saying wat i said.