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I think something is wrong with me. One minute I'm perfectly fine, watching TV or hanging out with my friends. I'm happy when I'm busy. But I never, everu sed to cry and I cry almost every day now. I feel so lonely. I feel like I want to stop taking care of everyone else and be taken care of for once. I wish someone called me up, instead of me calling them. I wish someone asked me when I'm free, instead of me always figuring out stuff. I wish someone would see how sad I get sometimes and would hold me and let me cry. I wish someone would kiss me just because they felt like it.
I know I sound all emo right now but I'm in a terrible mood. And I know in an hour I'll read this and think I'm crazy and that I'm the happiest person in the world but then two hours later I'll think of how alone I feel and cry even harder. I wish I could look at myself in the mirror and not want to do something bad. I wish for one day I could curl up on a rug in the attic and be four years old again, fitting underneath my blankie and falling asleep to the sound of the rain on the roof. I wish I didn't hate myself deep down.
I know I sound all emo right now but I'm in a terrible mood. And I know in an hour I'll read this and think I'm crazy and that I'm the happiest person in the world but then two hours later I'll think of how alone I feel and cry even harder. I wish I could look at myself in the mirror and not want to do something bad. I wish for one day I could curl up on a rug in the attic and be four years old again, fitting underneath my blankie and falling asleep to the sound of the rain on the roof. I wish I didn't hate myself deep down.