Would you mind sitting down for a while and talking to me, I'm feeling a little lonely.
So practice was cancelled today cause the weather is yucky, so I figured I would update. Today is my first day off of work and flags in a long long long long time (aside from Monday, but I was so busy taking care of Kent that it didn't even count). So the last few days have been nothing special...
I was talking to Brett at work about my "friends" out here in Schaumburg. I hung out with them on Friday or Saturday night (I forget when) and we had a bonfire thing. It was good to see them, only I forgot how mean they are to me. All they do is make fun of me. They make fun of my choices, my looks, everything about me. Well when I was telling Brett that, he was so sweet about it. He was like "Rachel, I think you underestimate how great of a person you are." Cause I was calling myself an airhead and stuff, I didn't feel like I was putting myself down, cause I am an airhead. But I guess he took it that way. He told me I don't need people in my life who treat me the way they do... and for once I feel like he's right. I don't need people who are gonna say stuff about me, even if it IS to my face. I talked to one of them about it and he just said he makes fun of everyone... but does that make it any better? I dunno. I feel very confused right now.
Randy and I were talking today and he said that eventually I am going to have to choose between the new friends I have here in Aurora and the ones in Schaumburg. I don't think that's true, ya know? I think my friendships with the guys in Schaumburg will just evolve into something different. Something more grown up. The kind of friendships adults have, like we meet somewhere for coffee once every few months, or for dinner, or something like that. That's normal, that's just what happens, don't ya think?
I am extremely mad at PJ. He wants to tell my secrets, fine. He wants to get me into trouble, fine. I don't need that BS and have no intentions of talking to him, aside from the next time I see him, which will be some arguing.
I got pulled over today! The WCC police pulled me over for going 34 in a 20. That's garbage. They aren't even real cops. At least I only got a verbal warning. That's good, I don't have to pay a ticket now. I did however have to miss math class because of it. That made me real mad, cause I didn't go on Monday cause I didn't feel like it. Now I've missed a whole week and we have a test on Monday. That REALLY blows. All well. So much for my 99.5% in that class...
Well, I feel I have done enough whining and complaining for one day. Now I'll sit and hope Kent calls me! LOL... I mean I will pretend to be busy until he calls...
Much Love,
Rachy
I was talking to Brett at work about my "friends" out here in Schaumburg. I hung out with them on Friday or Saturday night (I forget when) and we had a bonfire thing. It was good to see them, only I forgot how mean they are to me. All they do is make fun of me. They make fun of my choices, my looks, everything about me. Well when I was telling Brett that, he was so sweet about it. He was like "Rachel, I think you underestimate how great of a person you are." Cause I was calling myself an airhead and stuff, I didn't feel like I was putting myself down, cause I am an airhead. But I guess he took it that way. He told me I don't need people in my life who treat me the way they do... and for once I feel like he's right. I don't need people who are gonna say stuff about me, even if it IS to my face. I talked to one of them about it and he just said he makes fun of everyone... but does that make it any better? I dunno. I feel very confused right now.
Randy and I were talking today and he said that eventually I am going to have to choose between the new friends I have here in Aurora and the ones in Schaumburg. I don't think that's true, ya know? I think my friendships with the guys in Schaumburg will just evolve into something different. Something more grown up. The kind of friendships adults have, like we meet somewhere for coffee once every few months, or for dinner, or something like that. That's normal, that's just what happens, don't ya think?
I am extremely mad at PJ. He wants to tell my secrets, fine. He wants to get me into trouble, fine. I don't need that BS and have no intentions of talking to him, aside from the next time I see him, which will be some arguing.
I got pulled over today! The WCC police pulled me over for going 34 in a 20. That's garbage. They aren't even real cops. At least I only got a verbal warning. That's good, I don't have to pay a ticket now. I did however have to miss math class because of it. That made me real mad, cause I didn't go on Monday cause I didn't feel like it. Now I've missed a whole week and we have a test on Monday. That REALLY blows. All well. So much for my 99.5% in that class...
Well, I feel I have done enough whining and complaining for one day. Now I'll sit and hope Kent calls me! LOL... I mean I will pretend to be busy until he calls...
Much Love,
Rachy