Sooo....
Last night I went to see Batman. First off, let me start by saying how absolutely amazing it was!!! It was everything I hoped it would be and so much more. AHHH!!!!! Ok, anyways I should get on to the other subject. Not only did I see Batman, but I saw it with Janifer and Mark. I was going to being Nick but I figured it would be a little uncomfortable so I brought Janifer, but that's ok because I love hanging out with her. It was very awkward though. I ended up sitting next to Mark and it was bleh :(
The whole time I wanted to hold his hand and rest my head on his shoulder like I normally do but I couldn't. :( I tried my best to not do anything, but it was very upsetting. It hurt to see him and not be able to be a couple like normal. This is the right decision though right? I mean it has to be. Things weren't going good at all so something had to be done. It only would have gotten worse and worse. We both just need to take this time away from each other and continue or lives. I mean maybe some day in the future we will end up together again, but you never know.
Nick is pissing me off. I just can't stand the way he acts sometimes. For instance, say we're trying to do something and it goes wrong a little bit he will be the first person to just completely give up and ruin it. Even though it can so easily be fixed. I don't get why he does that. Why does he just automatically give up? He does that with everything. He even did that with our friendship. When I got pissed at him and said our friendship was over he was just like ok it sucks to have lost such a wonderful friend. Did he show that he wanted to fix it? No. I had to contact him and make him try to fix it. I just wish he had the urge to fix it himself. And he always assumes everything's about him. Like if someone's whispering and laughing he just assumes they're making fun of him. IT'S ANNOYING!!! Plus there's also the way that he will always just go off by himself. We were at my house yesterday and he was outside by himself, in my room by himself, and just always seperated from the group. I don't know why he does that. Even the day we went to the pool he was always off swimming by himself. And guess who always has to go get him and bring him back to the group. Yes, me. I always chase after his ass, ALWAYS! I know you're going to read this Nick, so I hope it doesn't upset you too much but it's the truth. I just don't know how to handle you sometimes. I know you so well, it's actually incredible how well I know you. I can pretty much predict exactly how you're going to act.
But whatever. Right now my life is shitty. Batman actually made it better, so that's good but it's still not all that awesome. I just hope things take a turn and things get better. I need to just have a bunch of fun. Things will get better eventually, right?
The whole time I wanted to hold his hand and rest my head on his shoulder like I normally do but I couldn't. :( I tried my best to not do anything, but it was very upsetting. It hurt to see him and not be able to be a couple like normal. This is the right decision though right? I mean it has to be. Things weren't going good at all so something had to be done. It only would have gotten worse and worse. We both just need to take this time away from each other and continue or lives. I mean maybe some day in the future we will end up together again, but you never know.
Nick is pissing me off. I just can't stand the way he acts sometimes. For instance, say we're trying to do something and it goes wrong a little bit he will be the first person to just completely give up and ruin it. Even though it can so easily be fixed. I don't get why he does that. Why does he just automatically give up? He does that with everything. He even did that with our friendship. When I got pissed at him and said our friendship was over he was just like ok it sucks to have lost such a wonderful friend. Did he show that he wanted to fix it? No. I had to contact him and make him try to fix it. I just wish he had the urge to fix it himself. And he always assumes everything's about him. Like if someone's whispering and laughing he just assumes they're making fun of him. IT'S ANNOYING!!! Plus there's also the way that he will always just go off by himself. We were at my house yesterday and he was outside by himself, in my room by himself, and just always seperated from the group. I don't know why he does that. Even the day we went to the pool he was always off swimming by himself. And guess who always has to go get him and bring him back to the group. Yes, me. I always chase after his ass, ALWAYS! I know you're going to read this Nick, so I hope it doesn't upset you too much but it's the truth. I just don't know how to handle you sometimes. I know you so well, it's actually incredible how well I know you. I can pretty much predict exactly how you're going to act.
But whatever. Right now my life is shitty. Batman actually made it better, so that's good but it's still not all that awesome. I just hope things take a turn and things get better. I need to just have a bunch of fun. Things will get better eventually, right?