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[spunkymelos]

Tampa was fun...hmm yeah, so anyway, steve and i are no longer together, my initiation...yeah, so he didn't take it very well, but i really didn't like not ever seeing him, and it drove me crazy that he wouldnt talk about things over the phone... i understand it isn't as personal, but in certain circumstances you have to make exceptions...and yes i care about him a lot, don't get me wrong he is a wonderful person that has a lot of potential, but i wasn't happy with the way things were...so today he gave me back all my stuff...the stuffed animal i gave him, an apology that i wrote to his wall for bumping into it so much, the picture that i colored for him at work of Corny the Golden Flakes Rooster, a wilted and drying rose from last week, and a picture from him and a note he wrote displaying his feelings...yeah, so i don't know how to feel, and maybe i dont have a soul, and perhaps forever more i am doomed to have relationships that last a maximum length and depth of two months as I haven't seemed to have anything more than that lately...
by god it isn't because i haven't tried, i just can't find anyone who understands me, i mean all of me not just fifty percent of the time...even now i am skeptical but am letting that go...meh

I am so sleepy...oh well
p.s. disc golf rocks on forever!!!!