Wow how ridiculous...
I dont understand things some days. Others I do. Today I'm settling into blissfull ignorance. I like this area the most. I like not worrying about things. I like the idea of laissez faire which seems to be my attitude this week. I'm just so over it today. I'm over drama, and dating, and hooking up, and feelings,and oh my god, I'm becoming a guy.
I have never done the "searching" thing. I've never read dating books (I have read sex books, because I like to have contests with myself to see how long I can hold a straight face while looking at the pictures),I never have gone on date after date after date in search of "the one". Sure I complain about being single, but thats the job of a single person. Pity myself while I think everyone else is having a greater relationship life than me. I'm just over that too. If its my time it'll be my time. Right now? Not so much. I pity any guy with the nerve to approach me right now. It wont be pretty. I might even laugh in their face. Which I'm sure is detrimental to an impressionable ego. I. Just. Dont. Care.
I need to look out for me. Which is something I've never been completely good at. I'm done dishing out advice to those who are to deaf to hear it. I'm tired of letting those who had power over me have it. I'm done. You are not better than I am. Let's face it. Those are the facts. You are done. I banish you from that pedastal everyone has put you on. You are no longer on mine. I'm going to store my books there now. Oh or maybe a stuffed animal or too. But not you.
Wow. I feel very good right now. If life were a musical (and how I wish it was sometimes) I'd be singing and dancing around my room right this minute, with a sweet little balad in the middle to my adoring stuffed dog Taffy. But it's not so i'll continue to listen to Jason Mraz. Who is coming to Indianapolis in May, and I very much so want to go. *sigh*
I have never done the "searching" thing. I've never read dating books (I have read sex books, because I like to have contests with myself to see how long I can hold a straight face while looking at the pictures),I never have gone on date after date after date in search of "the one". Sure I complain about being single, but thats the job of a single person. Pity myself while I think everyone else is having a greater relationship life than me. I'm just over that too. If its my time it'll be my time. Right now? Not so much. I pity any guy with the nerve to approach me right now. It wont be pretty. I might even laugh in their face. Which I'm sure is detrimental to an impressionable ego. I. Just. Dont. Care.
I need to look out for me. Which is something I've never been completely good at. I'm done dishing out advice to those who are to deaf to hear it. I'm tired of letting those who had power over me have it. I'm done. You are not better than I am. Let's face it. Those are the facts. You are done. I banish you from that pedastal everyone has put you on. You are no longer on mine. I'm going to store my books there now. Oh or maybe a stuffed animal or too. But not you.
Wow. I feel very good right now. If life were a musical (and how I wish it was sometimes) I'd be singing and dancing around my room right this minute, with a sweet little balad in the middle to my adoring stuffed dog Taffy. But it's not so i'll continue to listen to Jason Mraz. Who is coming to Indianapolis in May, and I very much so want to go. *sigh*