Dark skinned dilemma
The worst part about crushes is not knowing if they're feeling you or not.
There are many people who have battles with themselves being in love with one person and then having absolutely crazy intoxicating dangerous overpowering chemistry with another person. Is it alright to have a crush on someone when you are in a long term relationship with someone already? It's so hard to put a clamp on emotions, especially when they encourage/reward giving in to them.
One of my friends is in that dangerous chemistry category. Makes my head swim with the amount of sexual tension between us. One time at work with said person my friends saw how electrified the air was. It was so overwhelming and apparent they thought we had already done the deed. We hadn't. Too much respect. When I think back on those days we worked together..... wow..... I have no doubt about our mutual feelings at that time. It was for the best that he left for University because it was most certainly going that route.
People often accused him of being gay. If they knew him during that time, they'd think differently. Out of site is out of mind? Not in this case. I think we were playing "can you find me on the internet" for a while. I just happen to know that he calls females hoes alot though. I'm certain he would lose all respect for me if it went that route. I can't bear that thought. I just can't.