New Years Promises!!

[spunkychic]

On the day before New Years eve, I decided to work up the courage to see if I could talk with my Ex boyfriend again. Everytime I tried before, He always ignored me. I know! I know! I'm pathetic. I admit it! To my surprise, he actually opened the door and gave me the biggest hug! I was so surprised. I actually started to cry. I didn't know what to say or anything. I went back later to talk to him sincerely and we had a good talk. I was nervous to actually talk to him and I don't know how I felt. I still do not know how I feel about the whole thing. I'm actually so glad that I'm going to florida in a week for 5 months. I don't want to get back into a relationship with him. I don't think I'm strong enough to stay away from him.

::GOD MY TUMMY HURTS!!!!!!!!!:::
I should get something to eat...but Im not hungry.

Anyways, I am suppose to get my hair done and get a video camera..

:: I swear to god, I think my cat just spit or gagged something::

I want a video camera that I can hook up to my computer, do some good graphics with it and also do some video editing and stuff like that. It's my dream to be a Movie Director.

Anyways, I better go and get ready so I can go take care of some stuff...

I have to eat before I go anywhere or I think I'm going to throw up!!!

(It is just a case of the nerves. Going to florida by myself for 5 months not knowing anyone, Seeing my ex bf after not talking or seeing him for almost 4 months and the fact i got trashed on New Years Eve doesn't help either and eating 2 day old pizza...::gags::)

Well...I'll update more later.