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Well I can't sleep, but that's nothing new. I am supposed be awake at 9AM to go drop stuff off at the dump and continue to clean out the garage. I had a bloody nose earlier when I was working and didn't realize it until after it got all of over one of my nicest shirts. I figured I was just wiping snot on it. I just finished a recording session, if you'll call it that. I was trying to mix some themes from the Dayna package but after an hour or so I realized that the vamps are at a different tempo than the main themes. Damn Edd for making the theme that way; actually the music was written by Edd, but composed by an artist whose name slips my mind. Straight Talk is a much easier package to mix because it's all the same tempo for the most part. I had a relatively lengthy conversation with swingsetlover earlier. Ours usually last for like 5 - 10 minutes but this time I got to tell her a little more about how POS I am.
I've been doing a lot of thinking lately, but then again I'm always thinking. I'm just wondering how different things could have been in my life if I had chosen them to be so and if I could have gotten a little more cooperation from the school district. It sucks having to live with the fact that I got an 89 on all of my Regents exams last year and then this year I was dropped by the school. If I was given the opportunity to stay in school for an extra two years I would have gone for it. For some reason though they wanted me to be tutored the rest of this year on subjects that I easily could have taken next year. Whether I did tutoring or not, it wouldn't have impacted my graduating date. I want to go back and finish school. I'm not ready for the world.
I did not drop out of high school, high school dropped out on me.
I want so much but I can't have any of it. It fucking sucks.
I've been doing a lot of thinking lately, but then again I'm always thinking. I'm just wondering how different things could have been in my life if I had chosen them to be so and if I could have gotten a little more cooperation from the school district. It sucks having to live with the fact that I got an 89 on all of my Regents exams last year and then this year I was dropped by the school. If I was given the opportunity to stay in school for an extra two years I would have gone for it. For some reason though they wanted me to be tutored the rest of this year on subjects that I easily could have taken next year. Whether I did tutoring or not, it wouldn't have impacted my graduating date. I want to go back and finish school. I'm not ready for the world.
I did not drop out of high school, high school dropped out on me.
I want so much but I can't have any of it. It fucking sucks.