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i talked to chris tonight and from the tone of his voice and words he chose it seemed like he wasnt the chris i met three years ago it still seems like he hasnt really changed. Were both changing and growing apart and mabey its because were doing our own thing now,and mabey things will change once i start seeing him on sundays. Its conversations like this one that makes me feel mabey we should just end our realationship i know in the future he's going to see the person i see everyday and leave me over the person iam. I just dont want to hurt anymore and this whole thing has been killing me slowly im trying my hardest to hold on to him for the rest of my life because the second i first saw him i just had that feeling that he was my one...i just want us to work out and be the way we use to and love me as much as i love him...ive never really felt that he does and i want to.I wish i could know that everything is going to be okay but i dont im not really convinced that it will.