They'll name a city after us.

Jan 03, 2010 17:38

So I didn't really see things taking such an immediate turn for the better in my life.

I got dumped very suddenly and very rudely in november.
I started talking to Levi about everything, spilling my guts you know?
I started talking to Levi every day about everything under the sun. I started falling in love with Levi and realizing just how badly my last relationship was going. I don't even understand at this point how I could have allowed myself to be with someone who wasn't even interested in me for well over a year. I don't understand most of the things that happened in my last relationship, but now... even though it's only been about a month since Levi and I have been officially together, I can see what real love looks like. How I should be treated as a human being, and how I'm not actually losing my mind... it was just my body's way of telling me that I was in trouble and needed to get out.
So I gotta say, it was a million times easier for me to just walk away when I was dumped than it would have been if I had ever figured out that I needed to leave anyways.
I feel a huge sense of relief. I feel normal again. I feel like I can be myself again, and I feel overall amazing. I didn't think I'd ever see myself happy like this again.
I don't think I've ever been so in love with a person in my life. I'm trying to take things easy, as we've only been together for about a month, but it feels like so much longer. This is how it's supposed to feel. Love.
As bold of a statement as this is, I think it's safe to say that if I was ever going to look into getting married to someone, Levi would be the only guy I would ever even think about it with. Everything just feels so right. But for now, I'm gonna keep dipping my toes in the water and watching my every move to make sure I ruin this.
I'm so glad to be happy again =)
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