old and new
I just read EVERY entry i've ever posted on here and every blog i've ever posted on myspace that i didn't delete. I guess i have a pretty strange life. I notice that i'm really back and forth on emotions and living situations etc.
At least, if nothing else, i actually remembered a lot of things that i thought i'd forgotten about. Some great, others not so much, but i don't plan on dwelling on the bad things since they're all way in the past. I definitely feel a little bit more like i could tell you my life story than i did before i read all of those entries.
I have changed a lot.. I really was a weird little girl starting this LJ when i was 13. 5 years later i'm reading all these things and all of my old thought processe, it's really quite odd. I don't know that i've necessarily changed for the better, but i like to think that the space i used to have in my mind used for worrying about every little detail of every day is now occupied with "i don't even care"
I kinda wanna do a then/now comparison thing, but i'm at work and i get off in like 45 minutes so i doubt i could devise something like that in that short time.. maybe i'll just list now's and later i will list thens to compare...
Single, 18 years old, moved BACK in with my parents (sadly), no girl best friends, only a couple guy friends who are actually friends and don't just think about when they'll be able to get in my pants, very mellow mentality, been through plenty of actual heart-ache, as well as caused one person to have their heart ache, work at a hotel, no clue what to do with my life, my first love is in jail looking at time in prison, broke as a joke due to emergency room bills in excess of $1000, a real love for other people and making them happy before myself, and definitely starting to slip back into a deep depression that needs to be taken care of.
I'd say i have some more changes that need to be made as far as my emotions go and what i value in my own life, but for the most part, i think i'll be able to keep my head up.
At least, if nothing else, i actually remembered a lot of things that i thought i'd forgotten about. Some great, others not so much, but i don't plan on dwelling on the bad things since they're all way in the past. I definitely feel a little bit more like i could tell you my life story than i did before i read all of those entries.
I have changed a lot.. I really was a weird little girl starting this LJ when i was 13. 5 years later i'm reading all these things and all of my old thought processe, it's really quite odd. I don't know that i've necessarily changed for the better, but i like to think that the space i used to have in my mind used for worrying about every little detail of every day is now occupied with "i don't even care"
I kinda wanna do a then/now comparison thing, but i'm at work and i get off in like 45 minutes so i doubt i could devise something like that in that short time.. maybe i'll just list now's and later i will list thens to compare...
Single, 18 years old, moved BACK in with my parents (sadly), no girl best friends, only a couple guy friends who are actually friends and don't just think about when they'll be able to get in my pants, very mellow mentality, been through plenty of actual heart-ache, as well as caused one person to have their heart ache, work at a hotel, no clue what to do with my life, my first love is in jail looking at time in prison, broke as a joke due to emergency room bills in excess of $1000, a real love for other people and making them happy before myself, and definitely starting to slip back into a deep depression that needs to be taken care of.
I'd say i have some more changes that need to be made as far as my emotions go and what i value in my own life, but for the most part, i think i'll be able to keep my head up.