why can't I just be...me
Hey everyone. sorry I havent updated recently. Been a bit on the busy. Hehe. I guess I'll just get to the point in this update.
I'm pretty much to the point that I am becoming sick of the people I hang out wiht...not my friends...because other than my boyfriend the people I'm mostly around arn't my friends. I mean I have friends...I don't spend much time with them but I do have them. Why don't I? Becuase I'm to busy hanging out with Ray, and HIS friends. I don't like Kendrick. I don't like Stephen. Yet I stick around because I want to to be with Ray. I'm really getting tired of it.
Latelly, all they do is make fun of me. Calling me named like skunk...it's rediculous. I don't stink. The only way they could get skunk out f me is cause I wear black alot and I'm pale. I don't know where they thing this shit up...but it doens't make a person feel good, ya know?
and of course. Ray does nothing about it. He just sits there and lets them say crap on me. Most the time he's laughing along with them. I try not to get mad and through a fit. Even if I did they would say I'm being a baby and such. I just don't knwo what to do anymore
there's always something wrong wtih ME! It's never them. OH! NO! Half the time I do nothing. It's always I'm to gothic and shit, and I need to wear more color. Then I wear more color and I'm a prep or skanky. I cna't look mnice for Ray or I'm showing off. and I can't put makeup on and try to look good or I did a bad job at it...even tho there is nothing wrong with my makeup. It's always something.
Wnhy can't I just be the person I want to be? If I am it's the story...I don't listen to Ray or somethin like that. ray says he is tired of acting differnt to make me happy so he's gonna be himself. Well, of course thats ok for him but if I try to be myself OH NO THATS NO GOOD!!!
It's just aggrivating. What do people expect from me? To just shut my mouth and take whatever they say? Let them by my clothes and pick out what I'm gonna say? Give them all of my money and just keep to myself? If that's what they expect of me then FUCK THEM! I dont need them if thats hwo it is.
Hokw come people always say... to love you gotta love yourself. Well, I love ray...but when him and his friends say these things how can I love myself. How am I suppost to even know who I am if there always changing me?
*sighs*
I'm gonna go. I hope everyone has a good day. Sorry for the rant. Oh and I knwo my layout is kinda messed up right now buk I promise to fix it soon...and here are some banners....
Feel free to take. Comment if you are taking and credit
sorry...fogot how to cut.
I'm pretty much to the point that I am becoming sick of the people I hang out wiht...not my friends...because other than my boyfriend the people I'm mostly around arn't my friends. I mean I have friends...I don't spend much time with them but I do have them. Why don't I? Becuase I'm to busy hanging out with Ray, and HIS friends. I don't like Kendrick. I don't like Stephen. Yet I stick around because I want to to be with Ray. I'm really getting tired of it.
Latelly, all they do is make fun of me. Calling me named like skunk...it's rediculous. I don't stink. The only way they could get skunk out f me is cause I wear black alot and I'm pale. I don't know where they thing this shit up...but it doens't make a person feel good, ya know?
and of course. Ray does nothing about it. He just sits there and lets them say crap on me. Most the time he's laughing along with them. I try not to get mad and through a fit. Even if I did they would say I'm being a baby and such. I just don't knwo what to do anymore
there's always something wrong wtih ME! It's never them. OH! NO! Half the time I do nothing. It's always I'm to gothic and shit, and I need to wear more color. Then I wear more color and I'm a prep or skanky. I cna't look mnice for Ray or I'm showing off. and I can't put makeup on and try to look good or I did a bad job at it...even tho there is nothing wrong with my makeup. It's always something.
Wnhy can't I just be the person I want to be? If I am it's the story...I don't listen to Ray or somethin like that. ray says he is tired of acting differnt to make me happy so he's gonna be himself. Well, of course thats ok for him but if I try to be myself OH NO THATS NO GOOD!!!
It's just aggrivating. What do people expect from me? To just shut my mouth and take whatever they say? Let them by my clothes and pick out what I'm gonna say? Give them all of my money and just keep to myself? If that's what they expect of me then FUCK THEM! I dont need them if thats hwo it is.
Hokw come people always say... to love you gotta love yourself. Well, I love ray...but when him and his friends say these things how can I love myself. How am I suppost to even know who I am if there always changing me?
*sighs*
I'm gonna go. I hope everyone has a good day. Sorry for the rant. Oh and I knwo my layout is kinda messed up right now buk I promise to fix it soon...and here are some banners....
Feel free to take. Comment if you are taking and credit
sorry...fogot how to cut.