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today was pretty weird for me. i was in a good mood and i felt bad because you shouldnt be happy after someone u love dies.. jackie says shes felt that way before and it might sound corney but its like theyre comforting you. i beleive that. today i just felt like everything was alright, and that he is alright.
but anyways later me and jackie went to the tanning bed and i got burnt a lil bit. then we went to walmart and bought school supplies lol we were high and we were so excited. hahaah we are weird.
then sam and kristin came over and we got high. i love sam so much hes a great guy. he has to be one of my best friends.i feel like i can talk to him about anything...kinda like tony. me and sam went upstairs and talked for a while then we went back downstairs with everyone else and got drunk.. well they got drunk and i got REAL drunk lol. it was like 8 o clock and i went upstairs cause i thought i was gonna puke. and i woke back up around midnight to amanda calling hahaha but she told me an awesome story so it was def. worth it. then i woke kristin up cause i was bored. haha
i cant beleive i got drunk.. i hardley ever drink. i dont feel normal. feels like something is missing. i dunno. i feel so weird. sometimes i feel normal.. but then sometimes im like a zombie. i just feel empty i guess.if it wasnt for my friends id be crazy by now. thank u all so much for being there for me i love u all so much!!
im not going to school tomorrow.
fuck dat.
heh
anyways i didnt expect to write so much.
im sure nobody will read it anyways
<3<3<3<3
but anyways later me and jackie went to the tanning bed and i got burnt a lil bit. then we went to walmart and bought school supplies lol we were high and we were so excited. hahaah we are weird.
then sam and kristin came over and we got high. i love sam so much hes a great guy. he has to be one of my best friends.i feel like i can talk to him about anything...kinda like tony. me and sam went upstairs and talked for a while then we went back downstairs with everyone else and got drunk.. well they got drunk and i got REAL drunk lol. it was like 8 o clock and i went upstairs cause i thought i was gonna puke. and i woke back up around midnight to amanda calling hahaha but she told me an awesome story so it was def. worth it. then i woke kristin up cause i was bored. haha
i cant beleive i got drunk.. i hardley ever drink. i dont feel normal. feels like something is missing. i dunno. i feel so weird. sometimes i feel normal.. but then sometimes im like a zombie. i just feel empty i guess.if it wasnt for my friends id be crazy by now. thank u all so much for being there for me i love u all so much!!
im not going to school tomorrow.
fuck dat.
heh
anyways i didnt expect to write so much.
im sure nobody will read it anyways
<3<3<3<3