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ok so i dont know what the fuck earlier was about. i was fine all day and then i just fucking had a breakdown out of nowhere and now im back to being fine.
what-the-fuck.
im crazy. there is no more denying that. im a fucking nutjob, im fucking crazy, my brains are brokes. i dont even know what started it, what made me start thinking about it, what particularly made me sad about it. i have no idea. i think it was a mixture of things. but hopefully the hope that i have isnt false because seriously i dont want it to be.
i didnt have my talk with mike like i wanted. but it was better today. hes aware that im pissed so thats good. at least hes aware that im upset with him. i dont feel the need to deal with his shit, and its becoming more and more possible that maybe he has a thing for me and thats a no bueno situation too. i dont want him to be jealous every time i meet someone. and i dont want him secretly wanting me. thats fucking weird and freaky. oh! and he fucking like started hitting on lizzie after i told him she used to like him. thats serious amounts of weird and creepy and hes going to cut that shit out because thats seriously weird and creepy haha. i dont want to be best friends with a creeper.
i need to go to bed.
i actually enjoy math. im a weirdo. but i have a test tomorow! i hope i do good. wish me luck.
bleh.
oh, and wish me luck that i dont have a fucking nervous breakdown tomorrow. and that jt calls me. CALL ME BOY PLEASE
what-the-fuck.
im crazy. there is no more denying that. im a fucking nutjob, im fucking crazy, my brains are brokes. i dont even know what started it, what made me start thinking about it, what particularly made me sad about it. i have no idea. i think it was a mixture of things. but hopefully the hope that i have isnt false because seriously i dont want it to be.
i didnt have my talk with mike like i wanted. but it was better today. hes aware that im pissed so thats good. at least hes aware that im upset with him. i dont feel the need to deal with his shit, and its becoming more and more possible that maybe he has a thing for me and thats a no bueno situation too. i dont want him to be jealous every time i meet someone. and i dont want him secretly wanting me. thats fucking weird and freaky. oh! and he fucking like started hitting on lizzie after i told him she used to like him. thats serious amounts of weird and creepy and hes going to cut that shit out because thats seriously weird and creepy haha. i dont want to be best friends with a creeper.
i need to go to bed.
i actually enjoy math. im a weirdo. but i have a test tomorow! i hope i do good. wish me luck.
bleh.
oh, and wish me luck that i dont have a fucking nervous breakdown tomorrow. and that jt calls me. CALL ME BOY PLEASE