Ugh...
I'm not sure why I bother updating this thing anymore. I suppose it's because I know that I can get everything out and no one will know how I'm feeling. Yet I find this to be so negative. It's like I crave the attention. I want poeple to know how I'm feeling. But the only person who ever knows is Drew. I mean he has never been involved in any of my problems, yet he sits there and listens. I feel like I never give back, I just take and take and take. Which I don't mean to take and take and take and never give back.
I read a bulletin on myspace from both Julia and Melanie. Roadtrip with each other plus Matt and Bobby. It set me off into my I hate the world today tangent. I mean what happened to Ashley? Did she disappear, off the face of the Earth? Or did she get place on the back-burner of the stove, only used when needed. And I don't think I can take being that back burner any longer. Betty said that's what I was, I've thought this before. I'm just crap at making friends. Except Drew. Drew is a really awesome friend. And Nathan, I love them to death.
Schools almost out. Three more days.
I read a bulletin on myspace from both Julia and Melanie. Roadtrip with each other plus Matt and Bobby. It set me off into my I hate the world today tangent. I mean what happened to Ashley? Did she disappear, off the face of the Earth? Or did she get place on the back-burner of the stove, only used when needed. And I don't think I can take being that back burner any longer. Betty said that's what I was, I've thought this before. I'm just crap at making friends. Except Drew. Drew is a really awesome friend. And Nathan, I love them to death.
Schools almost out. Three more days.