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life confuses the fuck out of me.
everything was going so good. i was finally happy again, and i thought i was over it
texted him the other day to see if he maybe wanted to hang because i want us to be friends. he meant a lot to me.
and i was fine with it, happy actually.
then he came into my work today, and i wanted to run into the back and cry. something about him still tears me apart. we didnt even have anything that great, but he was the first person i completely let my guard down with and just liked for who he was and let him see me.
i cant let myself like anyone else now. i feel like its just going to end up like that again. i had such high hopes for "us" and it was shattered into a million pieces. i dont want to do that again.
we mentioned hanging out tomorrow
i want to, i really do. but gosh i dont know how its going to be.
i'll be home every weekend now for work so maybe finding someone here wouldnt be that bad
is it bad that i still kinda wish it was him?
everything was going so good. i was finally happy again, and i thought i was over it
texted him the other day to see if he maybe wanted to hang because i want us to be friends. he meant a lot to me.
and i was fine with it, happy actually.
then he came into my work today, and i wanted to run into the back and cry. something about him still tears me apart. we didnt even have anything that great, but he was the first person i completely let my guard down with and just liked for who he was and let him see me.
i cant let myself like anyone else now. i feel like its just going to end up like that again. i had such high hopes for "us" and it was shattered into a million pieces. i dont want to do that again.
we mentioned hanging out tomorrow
i want to, i really do. but gosh i dont know how its going to be.
i'll be home every weekend now for work so maybe finding someone here wouldnt be that bad
is it bad that i still kinda wish it was him?