head case
i have posted in almost 3 months:S What have i been doing? I got a facebook account lol. Been working, still @ zellers...getting more shifts these days b/c this girl like sliced her arm open, poor thing.
I just got back from Tony's garage not too long ago... pretty board. Everyone's home. Serena wanted me to take her + her friend Deanna to the mall later. I might do that. I feel like crying though. My whole world is slowly caving in me. As each day passes I feel a tightening within my thoughts. The other night while driving home I had cracked. It hit me hard. I just started crying for no reason. That day had been kinda shitty and a pusher to this outcome. The tears chocked me and I had to stop the car. Three times. I try not to let things get under my skin because I know how sensitive I can be. I'm recalling a time when I was about 12 or 13. My mom had won on a bingo scratch card...like $5. She waited in the van and told me to go collect the money from the dude. I can recall him being really rude to me and then i ran to van crying. If I look back now it was probably not a big deal, he was telling me that I couldn't do that blhalhala. I'm the type of person I want to stand up and fight if i have to. Anyways.....
I don't know where i'm going with this. I'm just really frustrated these days. There's always alot on my mind, I find I stare off a LOT.
Inside I just want to let out a million cries. This obviously will not help. Probably make things worse. I need to get away. Away from everything. A solitary vacation. That would cause problems though. I'm just a problem these days. I can't fully express myself, I'm binded. I don't have any outlets. Hardly any sources anyways. I was much happier when i was on drugs, I don't believe I cried for 6 months:S
I need to see a doctor about my head.
I just found out one of my aunts died. I haven't seen her probably since christmas or something. It's been so long. It's not fair. She was such a good person. May God bless her soul.
I just got back from Tony's garage not too long ago... pretty board. Everyone's home. Serena wanted me to take her + her friend Deanna to the mall later. I might do that. I feel like crying though. My whole world is slowly caving in me. As each day passes I feel a tightening within my thoughts. The other night while driving home I had cracked. It hit me hard. I just started crying for no reason. That day had been kinda shitty and a pusher to this outcome. The tears chocked me and I had to stop the car. Three times. I try not to let things get under my skin because I know how sensitive I can be. I'm recalling a time when I was about 12 or 13. My mom had won on a bingo scratch card...like $5. She waited in the van and told me to go collect the money from the dude. I can recall him being really rude to me and then i ran to van crying. If I look back now it was probably not a big deal, he was telling me that I couldn't do that blhalhala. I'm the type of person I want to stand up and fight if i have to. Anyways.....
I don't know where i'm going with this. I'm just really frustrated these days. There's always alot on my mind, I find I stare off a LOT.
Inside I just want to let out a million cries. This obviously will not help. Probably make things worse. I need to get away. Away from everything. A solitary vacation. That would cause problems though. I'm just a problem these days. I can't fully express myself, I'm binded. I don't have any outlets. Hardly any sources anyways. I was much happier when i was on drugs, I don't believe I cried for 6 months:S
I need to see a doctor about my head.
I just found out one of my aunts died. I haven't seen her probably since christmas or something. It's been so long. It's not fair. She was such a good person. May God bless her soul.