So much has happened!!
It's been awhile so I decided to update! Work's been so crazy! I work all the time, but I LOVE it! Sometimes there are very weird, awkward moments, but besides that, it totally rocks! Scott broke up with me like a month ago or something. Kinda shitty when it happened but no big now. It was actually rather strange cuz I never once cried about it, which is weird cuz I cry about everything. The only shitty thing was that he never gave me a reason. He kinda just let me assume what it was, but I'm pretty sure that what I assumed was way wrong, and I think I know exactly what it was now. I think I understand it a lot more now. Honestly, I don't care though. I was really happy with him for the first like 2 weeks when everything was perfect, but things changed fast. Maybe it was my fault, maybe his, but I think we just weren't meant to be at all! It's kinda weird at work, but I guess I'd rather it be this way than us not get along. It's just weird for us to talk to each other like nothing ever happened because something definately happened. At first it was frustrating, but now I think it's kinda funny. Oh well! I hope he's happy (really, not just trying to be nice)! I think that's why I'm so calm about us breaking up cuz he wasn't happy with me. I just want him to find what he's looking for, but I think he might have done that already (not with me). Anyways, this is better. I'm happy now, and I hope he is too.
So on to weirder things....yes, it gets weirder! Daffney wants me to get back together with Jake! Shocking, I know! She absolutely HATED him when we broke up!!! I've hung out a few times with her, Justin, and Jake and we had so much fun! We just laugh the whole time. Usually we go eat or something, and it makes it difficult to finish a meal when you can't stop laughing. She told me that she wants us to get back together cuz she thinks I was happier with him than I ever was with Scott, but I don't think it's fair to compare them. I don't really know what to do about it cuz I know that my family would hate it if we got back together. Well, except my mom. She hated the way he treated me towards the end, but she's warmed up to him a lot since he's been hanging out with me again. I think it's cuz I was away from home so much when Scott and I were together, and with Jake, I'm home a lot cuz he likes to be around my parents. My dad's so much better when Jake's around too cuz they talk about sports and cars and stuff (boring to me but if it makes my dad happy then I'm all for it)! Of course his family loves me! When they found out that he was talking to me again, they all wanted me to come over asap! Besides the whole family thing, there's always the issue of what happened last time. I just don't want it to be like that again. Do people or things ever really change? I think no, but with all that I've been through since we've been apart, I appreciate him so much more. I think he appreciates me more now too. He had a really bad relationship while we were apart. I think we may be meant to be cuz after everything that happens, we always end up back together. I may not get back together with him anytime soon, but I don't see him missing from the rest of my life either. I think he'll always be in my life in some way, and I'm happy with that. For now though, I'm going to continue to be his friend cuz it's freaking awesome hanging out with him. We have so much fun together. It's nice to hang out with someone and have no worries. I've missed that!
So on to weirder things....yes, it gets weirder! Daffney wants me to get back together with Jake! Shocking, I know! She absolutely HATED him when we broke up!!! I've hung out a few times with her, Justin, and Jake and we had so much fun! We just laugh the whole time. Usually we go eat or something, and it makes it difficult to finish a meal when you can't stop laughing. She told me that she wants us to get back together cuz she thinks I was happier with him than I ever was with Scott, but I don't think it's fair to compare them. I don't really know what to do about it cuz I know that my family would hate it if we got back together. Well, except my mom. She hated the way he treated me towards the end, but she's warmed up to him a lot since he's been hanging out with me again. I think it's cuz I was away from home so much when Scott and I were together, and with Jake, I'm home a lot cuz he likes to be around my parents. My dad's so much better when Jake's around too cuz they talk about sports and cars and stuff (boring to me but if it makes my dad happy then I'm all for it)! Of course his family loves me! When they found out that he was talking to me again, they all wanted me to come over asap! Besides the whole family thing, there's always the issue of what happened last time. I just don't want it to be like that again. Do people or things ever really change? I think no, but with all that I've been through since we've been apart, I appreciate him so much more. I think he appreciates me more now too. He had a really bad relationship while we were apart. I think we may be meant to be cuz after everything that happens, we always end up back together. I may not get back together with him anytime soon, but I don't see him missing from the rest of my life either. I think he'll always be in my life in some way, and I'm happy with that. For now though, I'm going to continue to be his friend cuz it's freaking awesome hanging out with him. We have so much fun together. It's nice to hang out with someone and have no worries. I've missed that!